missacorah
18-10-06, 09:31
Hi everyone. This is gonna be a moaner so feel free to skip ahead if you are in a good mood.
I managed to get back to work last week and was delighted after being off since the start of September. I didnt feel too bad at all even though my main fear was getting 'ill' at work and fainting there etc. I even managed to attend a day course at my workplace where at one point I was called up to the front and had to stand there in front of the crowd and help demonstrate something (the stuff of nightmares for me). I was ecstatic afterwards. Then on Friday I felt like I was gonna pass out but as I only had an hour left I made myself stay but still felt awful - the feelings didnt pass.
At the weekend I was worse, even the dizziness returned and I felt weak and faint.
Monday I managed to get down to work(its only round the corner so i walk) but knew in my heart I would be coming straight home as I felt so bad. I have never had to come home before through feeling ill. So I had to go in and tell the teacher I work with I couldnt stay and she was really nice about it all and I left.
Now I am off still, I am going to the doctors today and dont know what to say. I dont know which of these symptoms are real and which are in my head - I just know that they are all there to me! I feel like just asking him to sign me off work indefinately but i know in the long run thats not gonna help the way I feel. But I feel the added pressure of trying to get myself back to work is adding to my worry - I dont even know if thats causing the anxiety?I feel so down and feel I am losing my mind to all this.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated, especially regarding my work! (I work in a school so its quite a hands on job). Thank you x
I managed to get back to work last week and was delighted after being off since the start of September. I didnt feel too bad at all even though my main fear was getting 'ill' at work and fainting there etc. I even managed to attend a day course at my workplace where at one point I was called up to the front and had to stand there in front of the crowd and help demonstrate something (the stuff of nightmares for me). I was ecstatic afterwards. Then on Friday I felt like I was gonna pass out but as I only had an hour left I made myself stay but still felt awful - the feelings didnt pass.
At the weekend I was worse, even the dizziness returned and I felt weak and faint.
Monday I managed to get down to work(its only round the corner so i walk) but knew in my heart I would be coming straight home as I felt so bad. I have never had to come home before through feeling ill. So I had to go in and tell the teacher I work with I couldnt stay and she was really nice about it all and I left.
Now I am off still, I am going to the doctors today and dont know what to say. I dont know which of these symptoms are real and which are in my head - I just know that they are all there to me! I feel like just asking him to sign me off work indefinately but i know in the long run thats not gonna help the way I feel. But I feel the added pressure of trying to get myself back to work is adding to my worry - I dont even know if thats causing the anxiety?I feel so down and feel I am losing my mind to all this.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated, especially regarding my work! (I work in a school so its quite a hands on job). Thank you x