chris1981
09-08-13, 11:34
hi, im new on here so i thought i would describe whats been going on with me the past 4 years
right here goes........ 4 years ago i used to live with a group of people that smoked cannabis quite heavily, i never smoked it my self but was always surrounded by it, i would usually leave the room when it got a little too much for me and sit in my room, after a while i would find my self sitting alone in my room more and more often while there were people smoking down stairs in the living room
i remember one night when my head just went funny i felt has if i was stoned and it really wasnt nice, i felt like i was having a bad trip although i hadnt took anything which made me really uncomfortable about being around cannabis smoke anytime in the future, this made me distant from my house mates and i felt very " pushed out " of my group of freinds........!
i became very withdrawn and quite within my self for a while, i ended up making a big thing about the cannabis smoking situation in the house which eventually led my house mates to move out!
any way, the past 4 years i have been experiancing very weird sensations, feelings and thoughts almost every second of every day, constant dizzyness, ringing in my ears, a buzzing kinda cloudy, bitty feeling in my head that lasts all day every day
every morning its the first thing i think of and i think about it all day long, it has destroyed the best part of 4 years of my life, i am nothing like i used to be and have become depressed massivly over it...... i am unable to think straight or get on with my day to day activitys due to it........
i have been to numerous doctors and specialists about it but i have never been diagnosed with anything, ive searched the web high and low for something similar to my symtoms and have never found anything until i came across this sight......
i have read some of the other posts in this forum and i can relate to alot of it mainly the depersonalisation threads....
mainly i feel like i am not here alot of the time, its like when i do things like go to the shop,i feel like what i am doing isnt real or its a dream or something..... my brain is constantly thing " is this real " its a really weird feeling and its hard to explain it..... some days are better then others but some days esspecially after an hangover it gets really bad and things reach another level, my head just tottally looses control and its like im having a bad acid trip that i cant snap my self out of. i think about the bad experiances i have had almost every minute of every day and it has taken over my life
anyway i guess im just writihng thisin hope of some responce from anyone who may be going through the same thing so if anyone can give me some advise or tell me if they experiance the same sort of thing i would be very gratefull
thanks for reading this
chris
right here goes........ 4 years ago i used to live with a group of people that smoked cannabis quite heavily, i never smoked it my self but was always surrounded by it, i would usually leave the room when it got a little too much for me and sit in my room, after a while i would find my self sitting alone in my room more and more often while there were people smoking down stairs in the living room
i remember one night when my head just went funny i felt has if i was stoned and it really wasnt nice, i felt like i was having a bad trip although i hadnt took anything which made me really uncomfortable about being around cannabis smoke anytime in the future, this made me distant from my house mates and i felt very " pushed out " of my group of freinds........!
i became very withdrawn and quite within my self for a while, i ended up making a big thing about the cannabis smoking situation in the house which eventually led my house mates to move out!
any way, the past 4 years i have been experiancing very weird sensations, feelings and thoughts almost every second of every day, constant dizzyness, ringing in my ears, a buzzing kinda cloudy, bitty feeling in my head that lasts all day every day
every morning its the first thing i think of and i think about it all day long, it has destroyed the best part of 4 years of my life, i am nothing like i used to be and have become depressed massivly over it...... i am unable to think straight or get on with my day to day activitys due to it........
i have been to numerous doctors and specialists about it but i have never been diagnosed with anything, ive searched the web high and low for something similar to my symtoms and have never found anything until i came across this sight......
i have read some of the other posts in this forum and i can relate to alot of it mainly the depersonalisation threads....
mainly i feel like i am not here alot of the time, its like when i do things like go to the shop,i feel like what i am doing isnt real or its a dream or something..... my brain is constantly thing " is this real " its a really weird feeling and its hard to explain it..... some days are better then others but some days esspecially after an hangover it gets really bad and things reach another level, my head just tottally looses control and its like im having a bad acid trip that i cant snap my self out of. i think about the bad experiances i have had almost every minute of every day and it has taken over my life
anyway i guess im just writihng thisin hope of some responce from anyone who may be going through the same thing so if anyone can give me some advise or tell me if they experiance the same sort of thing i would be very gratefull
thanks for reading this
chris