mconlon
19-10-06, 15:46
I've been doing real well - got myself a CBT psychiatrist and eventually got rid of the dismal anxiety body tightness that I used to get each day. I can now work every day without needing to escape or go home and although I have the odd panic I have whole host of strategies for managing them . . . . but just when you think you have turned a corner - out pops another symptom.
I try to exercise to keep the happy juices flowing about but for the last couple of weeks, about 3 or 4 hours after exercise I get fluttering in my left chest - I'm asssuming these are palpitation - this sets me off into thinking I'm about to die and it takes the whole sheen away from feeling better. Went for an ECg, doctor syas its fine but lo and behold, 3 hours after coming off my bike i get flutters and start panicking again.
Facing death so frequently is just really distressing - most people don't think or contemplate it that often but every time I have a panic or these blasted palpitations I feel as if I am right at the precipice and about to fall in.
spending ANY amount of time there is really hard on your spirit and that is why I think panic and anxiety can lead down the path to depression and agrophobia - you suddenly have to take life and the possible future lack of it VERY seriously - my wife says she notices that I have a special "face" that I put on. I must look as if I have come home from a funeral.
I am - I think - an extravert who delights in the silliness and humour in the world and yet this condition just strips me bare of any of that silly joy I can experience and give to others.
So medusa has sprung the palpitations snake upon me - any ideas for turning it to stone like all my other triggers?
Much love to all us brave soldiers who are in the frontline of anxiety and panic everyday.
MC
I try to exercise to keep the happy juices flowing about but for the last couple of weeks, about 3 or 4 hours after exercise I get fluttering in my left chest - I'm asssuming these are palpitation - this sets me off into thinking I'm about to die and it takes the whole sheen away from feeling better. Went for an ECg, doctor syas its fine but lo and behold, 3 hours after coming off my bike i get flutters and start panicking again.
Facing death so frequently is just really distressing - most people don't think or contemplate it that often but every time I have a panic or these blasted palpitations I feel as if I am right at the precipice and about to fall in.
spending ANY amount of time there is really hard on your spirit and that is why I think panic and anxiety can lead down the path to depression and agrophobia - you suddenly have to take life and the possible future lack of it VERY seriously - my wife says she notices that I have a special "face" that I put on. I must look as if I have come home from a funeral.
I am - I think - an extravert who delights in the silliness and humour in the world and yet this condition just strips me bare of any of that silly joy I can experience and give to others.
So medusa has sprung the palpitations snake upon me - any ideas for turning it to stone like all my other triggers?
Much love to all us brave soldiers who are in the frontline of anxiety and panic everyday.
MC