laurab4
15-08-13, 13:26
Hello,
I have suffered with anxiety and depression for about 15 years, sometimes one more than the other. I'm now approaching 30 and feeling as though I have no way out.
I have recently received a letter saying that my ESA is going to end because it is contributions based and the 12 months are over. I haven't attended an Atos appointment because my anxiety is too bad and I panic and rearrange. Apparently because my partner is a student and receives a loan I do not qualify for income based ESA :(
I tried to put in a claim for JSA but withdrew it as I cannot attend the job centre let alone interviews.
I cannot even attend my doctors at the moment, as I ran out of medication in May and have not been back since because I absolutely hate going. It's a new practice (we moved here last September) and each time I have to see a different doctor and they quiz me from the beginning and only give me a 28 day prescription when previous I have been given a 6 month repeat. So I've been off my meds since May and obviously things have really gone downhill since then. I'm not agoraphobic, because I can go to places that I know with my partner, but I absolutely cannot go to new places on my own and therefore cannot attend CBT appointments.
Previously I was referred to the CMHT and a CPN came to me, but that was a different region and about 8 years ago - it seems they don't do that around here now.
I'm just at a loss where to turn :(
We don't have enough money to live on and I'm terrified we'l end up homeless. I can't look for a full time job because I'm far too anxious, and I can't go back to my GP because they'll humiliate me because I know it was stupid to not go to my CBT appointments and to just stop taking my meds but I didn't know what else to do at the time. I'm really stuck between a rock and a hard place and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry :(
I don't even know why I'm posting here because it's not going to help - I'm just reaching out for someone...anyone...who might've been in a similar situation and come out the other side...
I have suffered with anxiety and depression for about 15 years, sometimes one more than the other. I'm now approaching 30 and feeling as though I have no way out.
I have recently received a letter saying that my ESA is going to end because it is contributions based and the 12 months are over. I haven't attended an Atos appointment because my anxiety is too bad and I panic and rearrange. Apparently because my partner is a student and receives a loan I do not qualify for income based ESA :(
I tried to put in a claim for JSA but withdrew it as I cannot attend the job centre let alone interviews.
I cannot even attend my doctors at the moment, as I ran out of medication in May and have not been back since because I absolutely hate going. It's a new practice (we moved here last September) and each time I have to see a different doctor and they quiz me from the beginning and only give me a 28 day prescription when previous I have been given a 6 month repeat. So I've been off my meds since May and obviously things have really gone downhill since then. I'm not agoraphobic, because I can go to places that I know with my partner, but I absolutely cannot go to new places on my own and therefore cannot attend CBT appointments.
Previously I was referred to the CMHT and a CPN came to me, but that was a different region and about 8 years ago - it seems they don't do that around here now.
I'm just at a loss where to turn :(
We don't have enough money to live on and I'm terrified we'l end up homeless. I can't look for a full time job because I'm far too anxious, and I can't go back to my GP because they'll humiliate me because I know it was stupid to not go to my CBT appointments and to just stop taking my meds but I didn't know what else to do at the time. I'm really stuck between a rock and a hard place and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry :(
I don't even know why I'm posting here because it's not going to help - I'm just reaching out for someone...anyone...who might've been in a similar situation and come out the other side...