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16-08-13, 09:39
Hi guys,
I've managed to stay away for quite a while now and have been doing quite well. The main cause of my HA is bowel cancer and I have a phobia of going to the toilet- i had convinced myself I must have bloody stools but I've managed to check them a couple of times and actually they've been normal so I've been so relieved and positive.
But now I'm on a downward spiral and don't know how to pick myself back up. I've taken myself of sertraline 100mg because I want to try for another baby. I'm on a waiting list for a second round of cbt but haven't had an appointment yet.
I'm obsessed with lots of symptoms- sometimes I have back ache, sometimes I have a pelvic ache like I've got a uti, I've had sore shoulder and chest muscles for months, I get fleeting pains under my left ribs...all of these things my friends and family explain away by having to lift my heavy child, having given birth to a very large baby, having IBS...
I'm also obsessed with not being able to get pregnant again and hav convinced myself that I picked up an infection when I gave birth last year that has left me infertile : (
I want to crawl under my duvet today, please someone help make it go away...I'm too scared to see my doctor : (
I've managed to stay away for quite a while now and have been doing quite well. The main cause of my HA is bowel cancer and I have a phobia of going to the toilet- i had convinced myself I must have bloody stools but I've managed to check them a couple of times and actually they've been normal so I've been so relieved and positive.
But now I'm on a downward spiral and don't know how to pick myself back up. I've taken myself of sertraline 100mg because I want to try for another baby. I'm on a waiting list for a second round of cbt but haven't had an appointment yet.
I'm obsessed with lots of symptoms- sometimes I have back ache, sometimes I have a pelvic ache like I've got a uti, I've had sore shoulder and chest muscles for months, I get fleeting pains under my left ribs...all of these things my friends and family explain away by having to lift my heavy child, having given birth to a very large baby, having IBS...
I'm also obsessed with not being able to get pregnant again and hav convinced myself that I picked up an infection when I gave birth last year that has left me infertile : (
I want to crawl under my duvet today, please someone help make it go away...I'm too scared to see my doctor : (