OliviaO
16-08-13, 13:45
Hi,
I haven't posted here before but just wondered if anyone had any advice. I started my first job after university four months ago after six months of training abroad, and after about a month I was hit by awful anxiety/depression. I am dragging myself to work every day but I don't know how long I can keep going for. I feel like I have tried all the obvious options - vitamins, exercise, talking to my mum, yoga. I have been referred to CBT which starts next week, but have already tried moodgym and am just not very hopeful it will work.
The worst thing is that all the depressive, negative thoughts are focussed towards my job, which is a really good job in an interesting field with friendly colleagues. I just don't know if I will ever be able to enjoy it with all this negativity focussed on it. And I can't concentrate at all at work, meaning I get so frustrated with myself and even more convinced that I hate work. It feels like a vicious circle and I don't know where to turn. I have tried St. John's Wort and hypnotherapy too, but I don't feel like I am getting anywhere. It's been months now and I don't know what to do.
The logical part of me kind of knows why this has happened - I went to a top university, got top marks, have very high expectations, also due to a few minor issues at work with not having enough guidance. But knowing why doesn't seem to be helping me to get back to how I was.
I am trying the positive thinking with CBT but when the cloud comes over me I don't seem to be able to stop it for the whole day. I feel like my life is slowly falling apart and nothing I do seems to help. I think I will talk to my GP at my appointment on Friday about going on anti-depressants. I had hoped to avoid this but I feel like it is time to try.
I haven't posted here before but just wondered if anyone had any advice. I started my first job after university four months ago after six months of training abroad, and after about a month I was hit by awful anxiety/depression. I am dragging myself to work every day but I don't know how long I can keep going for. I feel like I have tried all the obvious options - vitamins, exercise, talking to my mum, yoga. I have been referred to CBT which starts next week, but have already tried moodgym and am just not very hopeful it will work.
The worst thing is that all the depressive, negative thoughts are focussed towards my job, which is a really good job in an interesting field with friendly colleagues. I just don't know if I will ever be able to enjoy it with all this negativity focussed on it. And I can't concentrate at all at work, meaning I get so frustrated with myself and even more convinced that I hate work. It feels like a vicious circle and I don't know where to turn. I have tried St. John's Wort and hypnotherapy too, but I don't feel like I am getting anywhere. It's been months now and I don't know what to do.
The logical part of me kind of knows why this has happened - I went to a top university, got top marks, have very high expectations, also due to a few minor issues at work with not having enough guidance. But knowing why doesn't seem to be helping me to get back to how I was.
I am trying the positive thinking with CBT but when the cloud comes over me I don't seem to be able to stop it for the whole day. I feel like my life is slowly falling apart and nothing I do seems to help. I think I will talk to my GP at my appointment on Friday about going on anti-depressants. I had hoped to avoid this but I feel like it is time to try.