simone
30-06-04, 13:06
I was on medication about 3 years ago (cipramil), which did help slightly in the respect that i wasnt thinking about everything i was about to do or where i was going. If those bad negative fears did enter my head it was easier to overcome them and be more positive.
I was weaned off cipramil about 18 months ago as i told my OLD GP i didnt want to have to depend on medication i wanted to overcome this myself and i was obviously in control and coping very well at that point.
I still had bad days but i was able to cope and overcome all the obstacles. Obstacles for me is going out shopping, mixing with other people, pubs, restaurants, public transport etc. I am able to drive on my own no problem. The house and my car are very much my SAFE place.
Its been like this for me for about 10 years and obviously its got worse over the years. Different scary situations that are scary to me i've forced myself to do which alot of the time i've ended up hating what i'm doing and wanting to go home. Once i'm home i burst into uncontrollable tears, its such a relief to be in my SAFE place.
The time i was weaned off of cipramil my personal life was going really well i had moved in with my boyfriend, i was enjoying and coping with work for once. 6 months later engaged making all sorts of plans and then 3 weeks ago after 18months of finally be happy and leading a some what nornal not perfect life it all stopped, through no fault of my own. I had the biggest blow i found out that my fiance had been unfaithful.
Which is therefore the reason everything and all those fears and anxiety and bad feelings have come flooding back.
I back at home with my parents, i have lots to sort out in my personal life aswell as overcoming all these fears and anxiety/panic attacks.
I wasnt offered any counselling of any kind or any help until this happened and i went to my NEW GP 3 weeks ago who straight away didnt mention anything about medication but to go for counselling, but this i think is generally to cope with whats happened in my personal life.
Theres so much more i could say about my attacks past and present and how i feel but i have gone on for far too long already.
All i know is that i have so many emotions and feelings going on at the mo.
I'm doing my very best to keep positive.
Reading everyones experiences and advice really helps a great deal too.
Seeing the counsellor tom night.
Back to work next wednesday.
Take care all
Simone.x.
P.s I've got that date aswell tonight, i want to go as i need some enjoyment and fun. Fingers crossed!
I was weaned off cipramil about 18 months ago as i told my OLD GP i didnt want to have to depend on medication i wanted to overcome this myself and i was obviously in control and coping very well at that point.
I still had bad days but i was able to cope and overcome all the obstacles. Obstacles for me is going out shopping, mixing with other people, pubs, restaurants, public transport etc. I am able to drive on my own no problem. The house and my car are very much my SAFE place.
Its been like this for me for about 10 years and obviously its got worse over the years. Different scary situations that are scary to me i've forced myself to do which alot of the time i've ended up hating what i'm doing and wanting to go home. Once i'm home i burst into uncontrollable tears, its such a relief to be in my SAFE place.
The time i was weaned off of cipramil my personal life was going really well i had moved in with my boyfriend, i was enjoying and coping with work for once. 6 months later engaged making all sorts of plans and then 3 weeks ago after 18months of finally be happy and leading a some what nornal not perfect life it all stopped, through no fault of my own. I had the biggest blow i found out that my fiance had been unfaithful.
Which is therefore the reason everything and all those fears and anxiety and bad feelings have come flooding back.
I back at home with my parents, i have lots to sort out in my personal life aswell as overcoming all these fears and anxiety/panic attacks.
I wasnt offered any counselling of any kind or any help until this happened and i went to my NEW GP 3 weeks ago who straight away didnt mention anything about medication but to go for counselling, but this i think is generally to cope with whats happened in my personal life.
Theres so much more i could say about my attacks past and present and how i feel but i have gone on for far too long already.
All i know is that i have so many emotions and feelings going on at the mo.
I'm doing my very best to keep positive.
Reading everyones experiences and advice really helps a great deal too.
Seeing the counsellor tom night.
Back to work next wednesday.
Take care all
Simone.x.
P.s I've got that date aswell tonight, i want to go as i need some enjoyment and fun. Fingers crossed!