evolve
20-08-13, 00:16
Hello.
I'm reaching out for a little support I guess. I had been on 20mg for a month, then upped to 40, and I am 3 weeks into that. I really was doing better for awhile, truly, but the past few days I've just been so sad... I'm full of shame and loneliness and sadness. And I'm completely unmotivated, I can't seem to do anything.
When I started the 20, I had a week of obvious side effects... headaches, sleepiness, difficulty concentrating. When I started the 40, I went into a deep depression for 3 days but then it got better for a bit. But lately... I wouldn't say I'm anywhere near that 'deep depression' I experienced... but I'm just so sad and anxious. I'm convinced no one likes me and I would never ever kill myself (my father did that and it just destroyed my family, I could never do that to my mother)... but I don't hate the idea of no longer living.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this?? In and out sadness that... perhaps got better after 2 months or so?? :wacko::)
I want to be patient as I'm only 7 weeks in, but it seems so strange that I would have been doing better, and at this point declining. I feel... well, I've already said it. :weep:
I'm reaching out for a little support I guess. I had been on 20mg for a month, then upped to 40, and I am 3 weeks into that. I really was doing better for awhile, truly, but the past few days I've just been so sad... I'm full of shame and loneliness and sadness. And I'm completely unmotivated, I can't seem to do anything.
When I started the 20, I had a week of obvious side effects... headaches, sleepiness, difficulty concentrating. When I started the 40, I went into a deep depression for 3 days but then it got better for a bit. But lately... I wouldn't say I'm anywhere near that 'deep depression' I experienced... but I'm just so sad and anxious. I'm convinced no one likes me and I would never ever kill myself (my father did that and it just destroyed my family, I could never do that to my mother)... but I don't hate the idea of no longer living.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this?? In and out sadness that... perhaps got better after 2 months or so?? :wacko::)
I want to be patient as I'm only 7 weeks in, but it seems so strange that I would have been doing better, and at this point declining. I feel... well, I've already said it. :weep: