Maria77
21-08-13, 06:09
Hi I need help, but please bare with me so that I can get the facts out:
I am a single mum in my late thirties, single for 3 years now, and as my son was on holiday for the first time with dad's family I made the choice of going on a date - online dating site. I did not like the man, when I met him, but I foolishly decided to sleep with him because I thought it would be nice to experience that after a long time.
I went to his house and although he had condoms he first tried to re-negotiate the use of the condom, he said he would prefer not to use it. I of course asked him to use a condom but whilst this conversation went on he was pushing his penis against my vagina. he then wore a condom and the sex lasted just a few minutes.
This was all. Ah and of course I flossed my teeth before leaving my house and a bit of blood was there on one of my teeth - we kissed.
I came home so disappointed in myself.
I started worrying that he could have given me a std when he pushed, although there was no penetration without a condom. I made myself literally sick with worry. Six days later I got a spot on my vagina and I went to the sexual health clinic and tested for all STDs including HIV and Syphilis, which is what the white spot seemed to suggest. Of course I need to test again at 6 weeks but that is in three weeks time and I am not sure I will still be sane by then.
My son came home from holiday and our cat scratched him, when I was cleaning the bit of blood on his leg I noticed that the cat had scratched me too and I had dripped blood on the tissue I was using to clean my son,
this started a new cycle of worry, guilt and shame.
If my irresponsible act wd cause such a health condition as hiv to my son, I would have to....
You see I am just unable to cope with that thought.
I have not slept tonight, not a wink, googling things about hiv.
I am loosing my mind,
Results for the tests at two weeks are due next week.
Please help.
Maria
Results at two weeks were negative, of course need to re-test at 6 weeks and three months but that makes me feel better.
Thank you for your replies and emails. I can't reply because I need 20 posts to reply but please let me thank you all.
I am a single mum in my late thirties, single for 3 years now, and as my son was on holiday for the first time with dad's family I made the choice of going on a date - online dating site. I did not like the man, when I met him, but I foolishly decided to sleep with him because I thought it would be nice to experience that after a long time.
I went to his house and although he had condoms he first tried to re-negotiate the use of the condom, he said he would prefer not to use it. I of course asked him to use a condom but whilst this conversation went on he was pushing his penis against my vagina. he then wore a condom and the sex lasted just a few minutes.
This was all. Ah and of course I flossed my teeth before leaving my house and a bit of blood was there on one of my teeth - we kissed.
I came home so disappointed in myself.
I started worrying that he could have given me a std when he pushed, although there was no penetration without a condom. I made myself literally sick with worry. Six days later I got a spot on my vagina and I went to the sexual health clinic and tested for all STDs including HIV and Syphilis, which is what the white spot seemed to suggest. Of course I need to test again at 6 weeks but that is in three weeks time and I am not sure I will still be sane by then.
My son came home from holiday and our cat scratched him, when I was cleaning the bit of blood on his leg I noticed that the cat had scratched me too and I had dripped blood on the tissue I was using to clean my son,
this started a new cycle of worry, guilt and shame.
If my irresponsible act wd cause such a health condition as hiv to my son, I would have to....
You see I am just unable to cope with that thought.
I have not slept tonight, not a wink, googling things about hiv.
I am loosing my mind,
Results for the tests at two weeks are due next week.
Please help.
Maria
Results at two weeks were negative, of course need to re-test at 6 weeks and three months but that makes me feel better.
Thank you for your replies and emails. I can't reply because I need 20 posts to reply but please let me thank you all.