paranoidtree
22-08-13, 14:24
Hi all, I haven't been on here since March. Even I was a bit surprised by how much time has passed but I wanted to come on and share where I am at the moment.
This time last year I was agoraphobic, health anxiety was through the roof, social anxiety, I wasn't working - basically I was a bit of a mess. The doctor wanted me to go back on citalopram but I refused.
Fast forward a year and I am a different person. I started work last November as a school librarian which I love, I've been offered a part time temp contact at John Lewis (though I'm debating about whether or not to accept this offer!), I've been on holiday, I'm due to start a degree in September (BSc in Nutritional Therapy), I volunteer in a charity shop, turned 30 (eek!), I even lost weight!
Don't get me wrong, I still have anxiety but having worked with a new therapist for the last 11 months I have been learning how to cope. I don't take anti-depressants though I do have diazepam for when the panic is too much but (touch wood) I don't take it on a regular basis.
I just want people to know that inside you (and it could feel really deep down inside!) that you have strength, and with this you can overcome anything, even anxiety. I'm not always as positive as this however keeping myself in the now (rather than in the past or the imagined future) has been really helpful.
Also, don't be put off by how long i've been working with a therapist, I have some complex trauma issues going back 20 odd years so it takes time to work through and deal with! Be patient with yourselves, it's a hard lesson but one that's worth it! Anyway, hope you are all well and good luck on your journeys!
This time last year I was agoraphobic, health anxiety was through the roof, social anxiety, I wasn't working - basically I was a bit of a mess. The doctor wanted me to go back on citalopram but I refused.
Fast forward a year and I am a different person. I started work last November as a school librarian which I love, I've been offered a part time temp contact at John Lewis (though I'm debating about whether or not to accept this offer!), I've been on holiday, I'm due to start a degree in September (BSc in Nutritional Therapy), I volunteer in a charity shop, turned 30 (eek!), I even lost weight!
Don't get me wrong, I still have anxiety but having worked with a new therapist for the last 11 months I have been learning how to cope. I don't take anti-depressants though I do have diazepam for when the panic is too much but (touch wood) I don't take it on a regular basis.
I just want people to know that inside you (and it could feel really deep down inside!) that you have strength, and with this you can overcome anything, even anxiety. I'm not always as positive as this however keeping myself in the now (rather than in the past or the imagined future) has been really helpful.
Also, don't be put off by how long i've been working with a therapist, I have some complex trauma issues going back 20 odd years so it takes time to work through and deal with! Be patient with yourselves, it's a hard lesson but one that's worth it! Anyway, hope you are all well and good luck on your journeys!