ReissG
23-08-13, 03:09
I am extremely shaken up. My best friend has been suffering with depression and anxiety for such a long time, years and she has relied on me to keep her strong, but the past few weeks have got harder and it's spiralling out of control. She trusts me more then any other friend and more then her entire family and I have never told anyone a secret of hers, but tonight she told me that early this morning she took a whole packet of her anxiety pills to make her black out and it shocked me so much I had to do something. Shes been saying for a while I am her only reason for living right now, she is so tired and doesn't want to be here. 2 years ago she smashed a mirror and completely sliced herself to pieces, was sectioned for a few days and come home. She is extremely mentally unstable and at the moment she is living with her mother who has no idea what it feels like to go through anything like her own daughter is. She treats my friend like crap, her own mother makes her feel like she is nothing and it's made her lose trust for her entire family, this aswell as some very serious stuff thats happened in her past, she just doesn't want to let them in anymore.
The thing is, her brother and dad are the perfect family members you could ask for, yes they are a little ignorant but they will always have her best interests at heart. So tonight when I found out she had taken the pills, along with telling me she is so close to suicide, I called her brother and asked him to pick me up and broke down to her brother and father, I had to tell them everything.
She currently lives with her mother but we have made a plan to get her back here with us so we can all sit down with her and tell her we are here now and we are going to help her. She has admitted she needs help, so she has taken the very first step.
But I am beating myself up so much, I can't stop crying. The fear she will never trust me again, that I will break her heart and she will hate me forever, I can't stop the thoughts coming into my mind. I have never told anyone a secret about her, but when she told me her life was at risk I felt like I had no choice, I know deep down I did the right thing, but the fact I've gone against her word will hurt her so much.
Do you think I did the right thing? I am so scared right now, she is my best friend and I love her with all my heart, I don't know what would happen if I lost her.
The thing is, her brother and dad are the perfect family members you could ask for, yes they are a little ignorant but they will always have her best interests at heart. So tonight when I found out she had taken the pills, along with telling me she is so close to suicide, I called her brother and asked him to pick me up and broke down to her brother and father, I had to tell them everything.
She currently lives with her mother but we have made a plan to get her back here with us so we can all sit down with her and tell her we are here now and we are going to help her. She has admitted she needs help, so she has taken the very first step.
But I am beating myself up so much, I can't stop crying. The fear she will never trust me again, that I will break her heart and she will hate me forever, I can't stop the thoughts coming into my mind. I have never told anyone a secret about her, but when she told me her life was at risk I felt like I had no choice, I know deep down I did the right thing, but the fact I've gone against her word will hurt her so much.
Do you think I did the right thing? I am so scared right now, she is my best friend and I love her with all my heart, I don't know what would happen if I lost her.