Robzy
26-08-13, 19:52
For the past 9 months or so I have been dealing with what feels like extreme anxiety. Constant worry, fear, panic attacks, sweating and suicidal thoughts. Eventually I decided to seek help and was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and panic disorder and I've been on medication for the past few weeks.
I've also been feeling paranoid that I've done something wrong, I've annoyed people and that someone is out to get me. To deal with this my front door has to be locked 24/7, I can't relax unless the blinds are closed and at nights the blinds AND curtains have to be closed so people don't see I have my lights on and know that I'm home. I have a constant fear of my phone ringing or that somebody will come to my door and I hate giving away personal information. I use to "check in" in apps like four square but now I look back at it thinking how stupid I was to give out my location.
Is this just the results of anxiety left untreated for so long or could this point to something else? I'm fed up and it feels like my brain is being destroyed with all this worry.
I've also been feeling paranoid that I've done something wrong, I've annoyed people and that someone is out to get me. To deal with this my front door has to be locked 24/7, I can't relax unless the blinds are closed and at nights the blinds AND curtains have to be closed so people don't see I have my lights on and know that I'm home. I have a constant fear of my phone ringing or that somebody will come to my door and I hate giving away personal information. I use to "check in" in apps like four square but now I look back at it thinking how stupid I was to give out my location.
Is this just the results of anxiety left untreated for so long or could this point to something else? I'm fed up and it feels like my brain is being destroyed with all this worry.