TheScript
27-08-13, 15:43
Just got back from shopping to buy new clothes, as soon as i walk in the streets with big crowds of people i started feeling completely anxious. Just feel so very out of it, and wanted to go home.. Did manage to buy some clothes ...sigh.
Next week i'm supposed to start a new Bachelor study in Oriental Languages & Communication (Chinese). Studying the Chinese language, culture, law etc. for 4 years. Which could be awesome, but i don't even feel like i can do it...with these horrible anxiety feelings. It's a hard study and i have no idea how to do it feeling like this. I'd have to move out to. I seriously feel like pulling back..
I'm so confused... no idea what to do at all. I don't want to go on meds either. I only feel normal when i sit safe at home on my laptop.. as soon as i get out of my comfort zone (like driving, going out, meeting people, moving out) i'm feeling horrible. I told my mom i'm having anxiety aswell today, because i just couldn't hold it in anymore.. she already kinda knew tho... :weep:
Next week i'm supposed to start a new Bachelor study in Oriental Languages & Communication (Chinese). Studying the Chinese language, culture, law etc. for 4 years. Which could be awesome, but i don't even feel like i can do it...with these horrible anxiety feelings. It's a hard study and i have no idea how to do it feeling like this. I'd have to move out to. I seriously feel like pulling back..
I'm so confused... no idea what to do at all. I don't want to go on meds either. I only feel normal when i sit safe at home on my laptop.. as soon as i get out of my comfort zone (like driving, going out, meeting people, moving out) i'm feeling horrible. I told my mom i'm having anxiety aswell today, because i just couldn't hold it in anymore.. she already kinda knew tho... :weep: