eviecass
27-08-13, 17:34
Hi, my names Eva I have just recently come out of a 6yr relationship which was sprung upon me whilst on a night shift. Our relationship had its complications and so on but you never quite think that it will end. It has and I'm in pieces. I understand this is a natural response and I thought I was doing well but I'm not at all. I have so much support from family and friends but I just want my partner back. I was paranoid before whilst together because of some of the things she was doing and who she was working with, supposedly I had no reason to feel like this but there was something wrong, in my head anyway. We had a house and cats together. The house is currently up for sale and was in less than a full week after she told me that she no longer wanted to be with me anymore. We had beautiful cats and 2 have found new homes which was heartbreaking.
All I do is cry. Im crying because even though I know that maybe this is the best thing for us I dont want it to be...does that make sense? I have had thoughts of taking my own life. I really want to and I know it is selfish but I want to be out of pain I dont know how to deal with these feelings. I thought we were for ever. We had plans to get married abroad and were looking into having children. My heart is 100% broken.
Please no harsh words regarding suicide I know its not the answer and it would be so hurtful for her to deal with and my family I just want to be honest so I can get the help and opinions from outsiders.
Eva
All I do is cry. Im crying because even though I know that maybe this is the best thing for us I dont want it to be...does that make sense? I have had thoughts of taking my own life. I really want to and I know it is selfish but I want to be out of pain I dont know how to deal with these feelings. I thought we were for ever. We had plans to get married abroad and were looking into having children. My heart is 100% broken.
Please no harsh words regarding suicide I know its not the answer and it would be so hurtful for her to deal with and my family I just want to be honest so I can get the help and opinions from outsiders.
Eva