Blueberry01
27-08-13, 18:13
Hey everyone,
I've had some trouble in the past with men, and have recently started seeing someone, however I keep having thoughts which range from paranoia to feelings of worthlessness and low self esteem.
When I let myself I really feel incredibly attracted to this man, but when I am insecure I can barely look him in the eye in case he notices. Sometimes I am almost afraid to speak to him and become scared of any type of intimacy.
I was celibate for two years, and re-learning how to be with someone is a strange experience. It feels like I'm young again. I haven't told him I get anxious everyday. I don't tell him that I am paranoid he is lying to me, nor that I feel I should stay away from him. When I let myself feel what I want to, we have amazing experiences together.
I'm not really sure how to go about all of this. Can anyone give me some advice as to how to keep this relationship healthy? How can I form a better relationship with myself to make this work?
Thanks for reading
I've had some trouble in the past with men, and have recently started seeing someone, however I keep having thoughts which range from paranoia to feelings of worthlessness and low self esteem.
When I let myself I really feel incredibly attracted to this man, but when I am insecure I can barely look him in the eye in case he notices. Sometimes I am almost afraid to speak to him and become scared of any type of intimacy.
I was celibate for two years, and re-learning how to be with someone is a strange experience. It feels like I'm young again. I haven't told him I get anxious everyday. I don't tell him that I am paranoid he is lying to me, nor that I feel I should stay away from him. When I let myself feel what I want to, we have amazing experiences together.
I'm not really sure how to go about all of this. Can anyone give me some advice as to how to keep this relationship healthy? How can I form a better relationship with myself to make this work?
Thanks for reading