Tastee
31-08-13, 02:14
Hello NMP. I haven't been on these forums in awhile since I have been very well!! I have not had any sex or done any risky behaviors that would lead to my irrational thoughts that would hinder my day to day activities.
Well- I moved into a new place the other day. I am loving it and all, but I always feel like the worst is bound to happen to me. I spent all summer not worrying about a thing like HIV, herpes, pregnancy. My mind took a long vacation and I was doing well!
Today though was a rough day. The lady in the cafeteria at my new place is a very friendly woman who I enjoy talking to. She always prepares me food and does a wondrous job and I respect the fact that she is happy to do what she does. But today as she made my sandwich I noticed a new cut on her arm. It looked pretty "fresh" with some old blood scabbing on it (not to sure, seemed that way tho) As much as I wanted to say "Excuse me I am sorry but i don't want the sandwich anymore" I stopped myself and said in my head
"You can do this- you're not going to get HIV from her cut spilling blood on your food". She wrapped up my food, gave it to me, and I proceeded to walk to my table to eat it.
I ate the sandwich, and tried not to think about it. But as I sit here and I can't help my thoughts. My mind has been racing. I even went to buy a pack of cigs' to help calm my nerves, and I don't really like to smoke.
Needless to to say- im freaking out. I come here to get some ease in my mind. You all here have been very kind to me even though my concerns aren't the worst in the world since there are many people who live with much worse.
I want to hear what you all have to think- I understand hiv is transmitted through needles/sex- etc.. but there is always that slim chance of common contact contraction.
So please, do you think its possible if this ladies blood got onto my sandwich- would give me the disease?
thanks all. I cannot wait to hear what you all have to say. much love
Well- I moved into a new place the other day. I am loving it and all, but I always feel like the worst is bound to happen to me. I spent all summer not worrying about a thing like HIV, herpes, pregnancy. My mind took a long vacation and I was doing well!
Today though was a rough day. The lady in the cafeteria at my new place is a very friendly woman who I enjoy talking to. She always prepares me food and does a wondrous job and I respect the fact that she is happy to do what she does. But today as she made my sandwich I noticed a new cut on her arm. It looked pretty "fresh" with some old blood scabbing on it (not to sure, seemed that way tho) As much as I wanted to say "Excuse me I am sorry but i don't want the sandwich anymore" I stopped myself and said in my head
"You can do this- you're not going to get HIV from her cut spilling blood on your food". She wrapped up my food, gave it to me, and I proceeded to walk to my table to eat it.
I ate the sandwich, and tried not to think about it. But as I sit here and I can't help my thoughts. My mind has been racing. I even went to buy a pack of cigs' to help calm my nerves, and I don't really like to smoke.
Needless to to say- im freaking out. I come here to get some ease in my mind. You all here have been very kind to me even though my concerns aren't the worst in the world since there are many people who live with much worse.
I want to hear what you all have to think- I understand hiv is transmitted through needles/sex- etc.. but there is always that slim chance of common contact contraction.
So please, do you think its possible if this ladies blood got onto my sandwich- would give me the disease?
thanks all. I cannot wait to hear what you all have to say. much love