Edward_1980
03-09-13, 16:37
Today isn't the best for me. Mark is really ill with a flu and a temp of nearly 40 degrees and I have been worrying all day yesterday and didn't sleep a wink last night. I'm up since 3am getting him water, paracetamol and doing the cooking and cleaning. I suffered the first attack around 6am. My face and arms tingled, my palms went sweaty and my vision went blurry. I rode it out and it lasted less than ten minutes.
I went to my appointment (Very tired and anxious) to see the Psychiatrist and get my Mood Stabilizer. Dr. Natasha and Dr. Kirrane herself were delayed so I had to see a complete new Doctor. I went in and the panic jumped right at me. I began getting very hot, babbling really fast and scratching at my feet. The Doctor understood that I couldn't cope with her so she got me a glass of water and sent me back to the waiting room to wait for Dr. Natasha.
After getting some air and phoning Mark I calmed down and Aeneas called me in to see Dr. Kirrane herself. Here's where it gets really tricky. I forgot about panic and got really angry with Dr. Kirrane because I perceived her abandoning me for the past two months. Aeneas was present and things got really ugly. I told Dr. Kirrane that I no longer trust her and I wished to speak with Dr. Natasha because I have come to trust her this last month. She was agreeing and Aeneas stepped in and said absolutely not. Dr. Kirrane then agreed with him and I got so angry I left without my Injection and script for my medication. On the way home in the car I had another attack. It wasn't full blown, but it was again the tingling in the face and hands, the sweaty palms, only this time I really had to do breathing exercises to stop me hyperventilating. I was shaking like a leaf after the encounter with Dr. Kirrane and Aeneas
I got home from the appointment and I was anxious, emotional and stressed to the core. The appointment went wrong, I had no script, no medication and Mark was so ill. It was all too much. I started to hyperventilate, shake really badly, got tingling in my arms and lost my balance. I burst into tears in Mark's arms. I just couldn't cope with everything that has happened since Sunday. I took one of Mark's Lexetan and a Zimovane just to relax for half an hour.
Mark got the medication sorted from Dr. Reilly and both Mark, myself, Dr. Kirrane and Aeneas are having a meeting tomorrow in Techport at 4pm to discuss me getting a new key nurse. I'm so sorry this thread is so long, but I just have had it up to my eye balls since Sunday and it all came out today.
I went to my appointment (Very tired and anxious) to see the Psychiatrist and get my Mood Stabilizer. Dr. Natasha and Dr. Kirrane herself were delayed so I had to see a complete new Doctor. I went in and the panic jumped right at me. I began getting very hot, babbling really fast and scratching at my feet. The Doctor understood that I couldn't cope with her so she got me a glass of water and sent me back to the waiting room to wait for Dr. Natasha.
After getting some air and phoning Mark I calmed down and Aeneas called me in to see Dr. Kirrane herself. Here's where it gets really tricky. I forgot about panic and got really angry with Dr. Kirrane because I perceived her abandoning me for the past two months. Aeneas was present and things got really ugly. I told Dr. Kirrane that I no longer trust her and I wished to speak with Dr. Natasha because I have come to trust her this last month. She was agreeing and Aeneas stepped in and said absolutely not. Dr. Kirrane then agreed with him and I got so angry I left without my Injection and script for my medication. On the way home in the car I had another attack. It wasn't full blown, but it was again the tingling in the face and hands, the sweaty palms, only this time I really had to do breathing exercises to stop me hyperventilating. I was shaking like a leaf after the encounter with Dr. Kirrane and Aeneas
I got home from the appointment and I was anxious, emotional and stressed to the core. The appointment went wrong, I had no script, no medication and Mark was so ill. It was all too much. I started to hyperventilate, shake really badly, got tingling in my arms and lost my balance. I burst into tears in Mark's arms. I just couldn't cope with everything that has happened since Sunday. I took one of Mark's Lexetan and a Zimovane just to relax for half an hour.
Mark got the medication sorted from Dr. Reilly and both Mark, myself, Dr. Kirrane and Aeneas are having a meeting tomorrow in Techport at 4pm to discuss me getting a new key nurse. I'm so sorry this thread is so long, but I just have had it up to my eye balls since Sunday and it all came out today.