smithjam1
23-10-06, 21:27
Hi
Been trying real hard, but tonight I feel really down. The person who caused me much distress and is the cause of my aniexty is stopping with us this week (he is a teenager). I have tried and tried. He has gone out with his mum and will be back at around 10ish. I feel really bad tonight, this is also causing my relationship to breakdown and I know longer know what to do. I try to keep what I am feeling inside as I don't want to upset my wife, but then it all builds up. I don't feel like anyone listens to me and I don't know how to resolve this. I dont really want to go into details about what happened, but it was pretty bad and I am finding it hard to forgive. This is also effecting my relationship with my children as well, I feel like a really bad Dad, I know deep inside that it is the opposite and a lot of people of told me I am a really good father, but this is hard. I can feel my chest beating really fast and i feel all tingly inside. I thought it was resolved, but something triggered it and now I am back to that person I was a year ago when it first happened. I know there is nothing anyone can do, but I needed to get it off my chest as one of my best friend is away on holiday at the moment.
Thanks
J
:(
Been trying real hard, but tonight I feel really down. The person who caused me much distress and is the cause of my aniexty is stopping with us this week (he is a teenager). I have tried and tried. He has gone out with his mum and will be back at around 10ish. I feel really bad tonight, this is also causing my relationship to breakdown and I know longer know what to do. I try to keep what I am feeling inside as I don't want to upset my wife, but then it all builds up. I don't feel like anyone listens to me and I don't know how to resolve this. I dont really want to go into details about what happened, but it was pretty bad and I am finding it hard to forgive. This is also effecting my relationship with my children as well, I feel like a really bad Dad, I know deep inside that it is the opposite and a lot of people of told me I am a really good father, but this is hard. I can feel my chest beating really fast and i feel all tingly inside. I thought it was resolved, but something triggered it and now I am back to that person I was a year ago when it first happened. I know there is nothing anyone can do, but I needed to get it off my chest as one of my best friend is away on holiday at the moment.
Thanks
J
:(