mat74
07-09-13, 12:56
Afternoon all
Once again I find myself posting a thread in the lead up to going away. Remember this: http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=137200
OK, so 3 months ago 18 of us booked up to go to Liverpool for a weekend to celebrate a birthday, this happens on 13-15 September. AGAIN in the lead up to this I find my anxiety and panic at its peak - constant worry about being ill and not enjoying the break, worry that I am ill when away, worrying I won't enjoy ANY of the time there even though we all have plans for the whole break i.e. pub, club, football etc
This worry has brought on a big IBS flare up which I have not had in ages, you know, constipation then diarrhea, stomach cramps, lethargy etc and generally not feeling like I can look forward to anything even though I want to!
A week to go and I am worrying about packing and what to take, meeting up for the trains, how much I can drink and whether I will be ill through it and also worrying that I will not be in the mood to go out at all and end up spending my time confined to a hotel room.
I promised myself I must make the effort, if I cannot handle alcohol I will have to not have it although I want to as I want the fun element and banter.
I am armed with paracetamol, colofac, pepto-bismol etc so I can self manage any problems and I guess that is all can do.
I know this all stems from my anxiety, I build up to an event and convince myself I will not be well and not enjoy it and I have told myself that after this NO MORE breaks or holidays as I simply cannot cope any more.
Maybe I need a psychiatrist to help me as I am evidently incapable of fun, enjoyment and a social life - all I want to do is sleep and stay in.
I want my life back, it wasn't always like this :weep:
Once again I find myself posting a thread in the lead up to going away. Remember this: http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=137200
OK, so 3 months ago 18 of us booked up to go to Liverpool for a weekend to celebrate a birthday, this happens on 13-15 September. AGAIN in the lead up to this I find my anxiety and panic at its peak - constant worry about being ill and not enjoying the break, worry that I am ill when away, worrying I won't enjoy ANY of the time there even though we all have plans for the whole break i.e. pub, club, football etc
This worry has brought on a big IBS flare up which I have not had in ages, you know, constipation then diarrhea, stomach cramps, lethargy etc and generally not feeling like I can look forward to anything even though I want to!
A week to go and I am worrying about packing and what to take, meeting up for the trains, how much I can drink and whether I will be ill through it and also worrying that I will not be in the mood to go out at all and end up spending my time confined to a hotel room.
I promised myself I must make the effort, if I cannot handle alcohol I will have to not have it although I want to as I want the fun element and banter.
I am armed with paracetamol, colofac, pepto-bismol etc so I can self manage any problems and I guess that is all can do.
I know this all stems from my anxiety, I build up to an event and convince myself I will not be well and not enjoy it and I have told myself that after this NO MORE breaks or holidays as I simply cannot cope any more.
Maybe I need a psychiatrist to help me as I am evidently incapable of fun, enjoyment and a social life - all I want to do is sleep and stay in.
I want my life back, it wasn't always like this :weep: