nojmac
07-09-13, 13:31
Hi,
I am going through a bit of a hard time today because i can't seem to get something in perspective.
Basically, i met a girl a few months ago and we have become incredibly happy. Before she met me, however, she booked a holiday to visit Rio de Janeiro alone. She is staying with Brazilian friends for two weeks and has flown today.
Meanwhile i am at home working towards the last three weeks of my Phd dissertation, so my stress levels are already very high. The trouble is that i can't shake the feeling that something terrible is going to happen to her. Yesterday she made the point that she can't believe how happy we are and something is bound to go wrong, and now i can't get that out of my head. I know that Rio is a dangerous place, i also know that she is sensible and capable and staying with friends who know the place, but i have this ball of fear in my chest and keep feeling so desperate.
Even though i know the chances of her being fine far outweigh the alternative, what i am most concerned about is that for whatever reason we wont be able to speak and i'll have a total breakdown, act like a fool by texting etc and then it will all go wrong. I just know that i am going to have two weeks of intense writing and stress with my doctorate, and that is so much time to just sit and think about what could be going wrong with her. I'm terrified of the fear that i am going to feel - if that makes any sense.
I'm really sorry if this comes across as totally confused or self-pitying, but i don't know how to cope with this. Does anyone have any experience of this kind of thing?
I am going through a bit of a hard time today because i can't seem to get something in perspective.
Basically, i met a girl a few months ago and we have become incredibly happy. Before she met me, however, she booked a holiday to visit Rio de Janeiro alone. She is staying with Brazilian friends for two weeks and has flown today.
Meanwhile i am at home working towards the last three weeks of my Phd dissertation, so my stress levels are already very high. The trouble is that i can't shake the feeling that something terrible is going to happen to her. Yesterday she made the point that she can't believe how happy we are and something is bound to go wrong, and now i can't get that out of my head. I know that Rio is a dangerous place, i also know that she is sensible and capable and staying with friends who know the place, but i have this ball of fear in my chest and keep feeling so desperate.
Even though i know the chances of her being fine far outweigh the alternative, what i am most concerned about is that for whatever reason we wont be able to speak and i'll have a total breakdown, act like a fool by texting etc and then it will all go wrong. I just know that i am going to have two weeks of intense writing and stress with my doctorate, and that is so much time to just sit and think about what could be going wrong with her. I'm terrified of the fear that i am going to feel - if that makes any sense.
I'm really sorry if this comes across as totally confused or self-pitying, but i don't know how to cope with this. Does anyone have any experience of this kind of thing?