Kourtney
09-09-13, 07:39
Im a 16 year old girl, from Australia.
I weigh 45KG. I have major clinical depression, sever depression and sever anxiety.
I weigh myself everyday, after everything i eat..
Im so scared to go over 50KG, even if i gain 1KG i wont eat until it goes back down to 45KG. I really don't know whats going on with my thoughts.
I dont really know what i'm writing, but i just don't know what to do. I just want to weigh 30KG. But i don't know how to do it, and i don't want people that i know, to know that i'm struggling..
I don't have the motivation to go to the gym, or to buy healthy food, i don't even have the motivation to eat..
Straight after i eat, i feel it go to my legs, stomach, neck, arms, and face. I always feel disgusting
The other night i was so fed up with my body, that i thought if i cut my stomach open all the fat would fall out, and if be happy.
I did that... But obviously it did nothing but leave marks. No one knows i did that, and i want to keep it that way.
I just don't know what to do.
I weigh 45KG. I have major clinical depression, sever depression and sever anxiety.
I weigh myself everyday, after everything i eat..
Im so scared to go over 50KG, even if i gain 1KG i wont eat until it goes back down to 45KG. I really don't know whats going on with my thoughts.
I dont really know what i'm writing, but i just don't know what to do. I just want to weigh 30KG. But i don't know how to do it, and i don't want people that i know, to know that i'm struggling..
I don't have the motivation to go to the gym, or to buy healthy food, i don't even have the motivation to eat..
Straight after i eat, i feel it go to my legs, stomach, neck, arms, and face. I always feel disgusting
The other night i was so fed up with my body, that i thought if i cut my stomach open all the fat would fall out, and if be happy.
I did that... But obviously it did nothing but leave marks. No one knows i did that, and i want to keep it that way.
I just don't know what to do.