katesa
10-09-13, 13:13
Hi everyone,
First of all, thank you to everyone who responded to my last thread about an abnormal smear test result - I had the colnoscopy done and just have to repeat the test in a years time as the abnormality was very small. Sorry for not coming back and thanking you all sooner, I've had problems with my keyboard.
Now please, somebody tell me to get a grip and help me stop doing this to myself. Skippy, I put your name in the title because I've read some of your posts and think I could really do with a bit of your brand of truthful advice.
I'm a 29 year old woman with a gorgeous 6 month old baby boy and a wonderful husband but I've stopped enjoying life the way I should. I was doing so well with my HA - stopped smoking (I was smoking for 10 years, stopped when pregnant then started again like an idiot when my baby was 2 months old) and was exercising and losing some of the huge 6 stone weight gain I put on in pregnancy.
Then I had the abnormal smear test result and through panic started smoking again. When the Colnoscopy was clear I was relieved but then started getting lower back pain. I went to the doctors and they asked whether I had pelvic pain, I said I did sometimes. They wanted to send me for an ultrasound and while waiting, I convinced myself I had ovarian cancer.
During the ultrasound the technician said my ovaries and uterus looked fine and then said he was going to take a little look at my bowel but then didn't comment on it. At the time I was too relieved that my ovaries looked ok to worry about that but when I got home, I looked on google and saw that abdominal pain can also be a sign of bowel cancer and I have also had other symptoms.So, because the technician hadn't catergorically said to me that my bowel looked fine like he did everything else, I immediately assumed I had bowel cancer.
And then the scan came back perfectly clear. I also had blood tests - full blood count, liver and kidney function etc and all were clear. Yay.
Except I am now fixated on cancer and have started noticing the cough that I have had for years (I had a chest x ray at 19 when it started and it was clear so I just assumed it was a smokers cough - it did ease when I stopped smoking). I've had a mild cough for as long as I can remember. I sometimes cough up clear fluid that seems to come from my throat. I am also noticing that I am sometimes a bit breathless carrying my baby or going upstairs too quickly and I still have the lower back pain with shoulder pain now and then.
I have an overactive thyroid and graves disease which is currently out of control and this can cause digestive issues, muscle pain and breathlessness (basically every symptom except the cough) and also can cause heightened anxiety and even psychosis. My breathlessness could also be down to my increased weight and to be honest I only notice it when I think about it so logically, it cant be that bad. A doctor has listened to my chest and heard nothing untoward. And all my blood tests have been perfect.
But despite all this, I now keep convincing myself that I have lung cancer and depressing myself. My poor husband is getting frustrated as I've gone from one cancer to another over the last month or so and nothing has been found.
Guys, I don't want to go to the GP with lung cancer concerns and start the whole process of tests, waiting in fear, relief then finding something else to worry about again. I am spoiling our lives with this. Please somebody tell me to knock it off and advise me. I just want to stop it - I'm living in fear.
First of all, thank you to everyone who responded to my last thread about an abnormal smear test result - I had the colnoscopy done and just have to repeat the test in a years time as the abnormality was very small. Sorry for not coming back and thanking you all sooner, I've had problems with my keyboard.
Now please, somebody tell me to get a grip and help me stop doing this to myself. Skippy, I put your name in the title because I've read some of your posts and think I could really do with a bit of your brand of truthful advice.
I'm a 29 year old woman with a gorgeous 6 month old baby boy and a wonderful husband but I've stopped enjoying life the way I should. I was doing so well with my HA - stopped smoking (I was smoking for 10 years, stopped when pregnant then started again like an idiot when my baby was 2 months old) and was exercising and losing some of the huge 6 stone weight gain I put on in pregnancy.
Then I had the abnormal smear test result and through panic started smoking again. When the Colnoscopy was clear I was relieved but then started getting lower back pain. I went to the doctors and they asked whether I had pelvic pain, I said I did sometimes. They wanted to send me for an ultrasound and while waiting, I convinced myself I had ovarian cancer.
During the ultrasound the technician said my ovaries and uterus looked fine and then said he was going to take a little look at my bowel but then didn't comment on it. At the time I was too relieved that my ovaries looked ok to worry about that but when I got home, I looked on google and saw that abdominal pain can also be a sign of bowel cancer and I have also had other symptoms.So, because the technician hadn't catergorically said to me that my bowel looked fine like he did everything else, I immediately assumed I had bowel cancer.
And then the scan came back perfectly clear. I also had blood tests - full blood count, liver and kidney function etc and all were clear. Yay.
Except I am now fixated on cancer and have started noticing the cough that I have had for years (I had a chest x ray at 19 when it started and it was clear so I just assumed it was a smokers cough - it did ease when I stopped smoking). I've had a mild cough for as long as I can remember. I sometimes cough up clear fluid that seems to come from my throat. I am also noticing that I am sometimes a bit breathless carrying my baby or going upstairs too quickly and I still have the lower back pain with shoulder pain now and then.
I have an overactive thyroid and graves disease which is currently out of control and this can cause digestive issues, muscle pain and breathlessness (basically every symptom except the cough) and also can cause heightened anxiety and even psychosis. My breathlessness could also be down to my increased weight and to be honest I only notice it when I think about it so logically, it cant be that bad. A doctor has listened to my chest and heard nothing untoward. And all my blood tests have been perfect.
But despite all this, I now keep convincing myself that I have lung cancer and depressing myself. My poor husband is getting frustrated as I've gone from one cancer to another over the last month or so and nothing has been found.
Guys, I don't want to go to the GP with lung cancer concerns and start the whole process of tests, waiting in fear, relief then finding something else to worry about again. I am spoiling our lives with this. Please somebody tell me to knock it off and advise me. I just want to stop it - I'm living in fear.