mark bucks
11-09-13, 07:37
Right here goes....... About 12 weeks ago i had a shoulder injury from lifting weights. Whilst having a feel around i decided to check under my armpit and i came accross a small lump. It's probably about a cm or so wide, it moves but its not soft its firm but not hard if that makes sense. So i have been checking it everyday and i sit and worry about it all day and night. After digging around in my armpit even deeper pushing harder i can feel another one! it is about the same size too.
Once i had established that these are my Lymph nodes i decided to locate the others to see if i could feel them. The answer is yes i can, they are in my left armpit although slighty smaller and i can feel them in my neck and groin! None of them are overly big and are not visible to the eye. The thing is all the reading i have done about them suggests that you should not be able to feel them unless they are swollen which would mean infected! or Lymphoma!!! i am not sick and for all i know they could have always been there.
I am a worrier at the best of times i panic about anything to do with health or hazards, i wont even let my children travel in someone elses car which my wife thinks is silly. I am ex millitary with multiple tours of Afghanistan and Iraq behind me as an infanteer (frontline). My wife blames my anxiety and panic attacks on this but i am not so sure as the lumps are there i can feel my lymph nodes, it is not my imagination.
I want to go to the doctors but i am slightly embarrassed and also scared of getting bad news. I had something similar back in April where i was convinced i had cancer, went to the docs who run a full blood test and sent me for a scan, all came back clear. now i am convinced that i have something wrong with my Lymph nodes and that the tests i had a few months ago mean nothing now as i must have got this disease after those tests!!
It is wearing me down and i am emotional all the time, i work away from home, spend a lot of time alone and i miss my wife and kids terribly, i think this makes it all seem worse.
I dont even know what the chances are of me having Lymphoma at my age (31) are. I really want to stop thinking about this, the trouble is i am away working again and i cant get to a doctor for at least six weeks.
Any advice or opinions would be really appreciated. Thank you.
Once i had established that these are my Lymph nodes i decided to locate the others to see if i could feel them. The answer is yes i can, they are in my left armpit although slighty smaller and i can feel them in my neck and groin! None of them are overly big and are not visible to the eye. The thing is all the reading i have done about them suggests that you should not be able to feel them unless they are swollen which would mean infected! or Lymphoma!!! i am not sick and for all i know they could have always been there.
I am a worrier at the best of times i panic about anything to do with health or hazards, i wont even let my children travel in someone elses car which my wife thinks is silly. I am ex millitary with multiple tours of Afghanistan and Iraq behind me as an infanteer (frontline). My wife blames my anxiety and panic attacks on this but i am not so sure as the lumps are there i can feel my lymph nodes, it is not my imagination.
I want to go to the doctors but i am slightly embarrassed and also scared of getting bad news. I had something similar back in April where i was convinced i had cancer, went to the docs who run a full blood test and sent me for a scan, all came back clear. now i am convinced that i have something wrong with my Lymph nodes and that the tests i had a few months ago mean nothing now as i must have got this disease after those tests!!
It is wearing me down and i am emotional all the time, i work away from home, spend a lot of time alone and i miss my wife and kids terribly, i think this makes it all seem worse.
I dont even know what the chances are of me having Lymphoma at my age (31) are. I really want to stop thinking about this, the trouble is i am away working again and i cant get to a doctor for at least six weeks.
Any advice or opinions would be really appreciated. Thank you.