Rory1993
12-09-13, 12:59
Hi,
I've just joined this forum and was hoping to find advice/information. I know you are probably sick of hearing about the same symptoms but this is all new for me and I need all the help I can get.
Last month I had two weeks of solid panic (have never had any anxiety issues in my life) I mean no-shit-shaking-vomiting-heart pounding-would rather jump to my death panic attacks. Didn't even know it was possible to feel something so horrific!!!! They came out of nowhere. No family history. No trauma. Was in a great place in my life. Really weird.
It has been a month and the anxiety has died down significantly. Like I can actually sit still now!! Achievement! And hold a conversation without bolting like a mad woman.
But now I am noticing bizarre symptoms. Like random thoughts and very disjointed thinking patterns. Also I am so spaced out I often forget where I am or what I'm doing. I normally have the sharpest memory and I literally can't remember what I was doing 2 hours ago??? Like the day doesn't even seem like it really happened. This is terrifying me. I am afraid this must be something more than anxiety. I also have a feeling that everything isn't real or is distorted somehow but I can't explain it. I also don't recognise my family or my boyfriend (I know who they are but it doesn't FEEL like I know them) it is genuinely horrifying. I would have died for my boyfriend, he is the most amazing person I have ever met, but now I feel like I have never met him :( :( I can't feel any emotion. It's all forced. I feel dead.
Surely this has to be early psychosis or something because it is too strange. I feel like reality is slipping out of my hands and I could completely drop it at any moment.
Did you experience any of this?? I am very worried. I used to be all sunshine and light and now I feel like nothing at all.
Thanks so much for your time xxx
I've just joined this forum and was hoping to find advice/information. I know you are probably sick of hearing about the same symptoms but this is all new for me and I need all the help I can get.
Last month I had two weeks of solid panic (have never had any anxiety issues in my life) I mean no-shit-shaking-vomiting-heart pounding-would rather jump to my death panic attacks. Didn't even know it was possible to feel something so horrific!!!! They came out of nowhere. No family history. No trauma. Was in a great place in my life. Really weird.
It has been a month and the anxiety has died down significantly. Like I can actually sit still now!! Achievement! And hold a conversation without bolting like a mad woman.
But now I am noticing bizarre symptoms. Like random thoughts and very disjointed thinking patterns. Also I am so spaced out I often forget where I am or what I'm doing. I normally have the sharpest memory and I literally can't remember what I was doing 2 hours ago??? Like the day doesn't even seem like it really happened. This is terrifying me. I am afraid this must be something more than anxiety. I also have a feeling that everything isn't real or is distorted somehow but I can't explain it. I also don't recognise my family or my boyfriend (I know who they are but it doesn't FEEL like I know them) it is genuinely horrifying. I would have died for my boyfriend, he is the most amazing person I have ever met, but now I feel like I have never met him :( :( I can't feel any emotion. It's all forced. I feel dead.
Surely this has to be early psychosis or something because it is too strange. I feel like reality is slipping out of my hands and I could completely drop it at any moment.
Did you experience any of this?? I am very worried. I used to be all sunshine and light and now I feel like nothing at all.
Thanks so much for your time xxx