cpe1978
16-09-13, 11:50
Hi All,
Sorry to moan, but I am even getting bored of myself now, god only knows what my wife must think!
I have suffered from anxety for a number of years. I am currently going through CBT and my therapist refers to it as a worry disorder. I must confess she is the first person who has explained it to me in a way that makes sense.
I have booked a doctor's appointment on Thursday, but honestly no longer even know what to say. I am so reluctant to take drugs having had a couple of periods on citalopram and then a recent unpleasant time on mirtazapine. I would love to exist drug free but just don't know if I can.
At the moment I am worried about (don't laugh):
* Slight back and side pain on the left that hurts when i bend and occasionally when i breath.
* Think I have noticed that my left testicle is smaller than the right (I have a cyst on top of it which has always made me a bit nervous about problems down there).
* Think my urine is very dark at various points of the day (others it is light) - I drink plenty of water.
Writing these down they just seem utterly innocuous symptoms, yet for me at the moment they are flashing like red flags of something drastic. I am embarrassed to even sit down at the doctors and end up trivialising and rambling and then leaving with nothing - i suppose in reality there is nothing sensible they can do.
I hate this so much and am struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel at the moment. I am really trying to buy into CBT but if anything I think I am getting worse.
I genuinely feel for all of you who post on here and wish you all the very best with getting better.
Chris
Sorry to moan, but I am even getting bored of myself now, god only knows what my wife must think!
I have suffered from anxety for a number of years. I am currently going through CBT and my therapist refers to it as a worry disorder. I must confess she is the first person who has explained it to me in a way that makes sense.
I have booked a doctor's appointment on Thursday, but honestly no longer even know what to say. I am so reluctant to take drugs having had a couple of periods on citalopram and then a recent unpleasant time on mirtazapine. I would love to exist drug free but just don't know if I can.
At the moment I am worried about (don't laugh):
* Slight back and side pain on the left that hurts when i bend and occasionally when i breath.
* Think I have noticed that my left testicle is smaller than the right (I have a cyst on top of it which has always made me a bit nervous about problems down there).
* Think my urine is very dark at various points of the day (others it is light) - I drink plenty of water.
Writing these down they just seem utterly innocuous symptoms, yet for me at the moment they are flashing like red flags of something drastic. I am embarrassed to even sit down at the doctors and end up trivialising and rambling and then leaving with nothing - i suppose in reality there is nothing sensible they can do.
I hate this so much and am struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel at the moment. I am really trying to buy into CBT but if anything I think I am getting worse.
I genuinely feel for all of you who post on here and wish you all the very best with getting better.
Chris