Smallie
23-09-13, 16:09
Hi everyone, my 30th birthday is coming up, next Wednesday. I'm just so anxious about it! In fact i'm been dreading it for months.
I really want to celebrate it as I never really celebrated my birthdays in the past due to my anxieties and lack of confidence which made it hard for me to make friends.
I guess one reason I don't want to turn 30 is the fact that I never enjoyed my younger years. I often hear of people saying how they partied and had a lot of fun when they were younger, something which I never really experienced which make me feel sad
I do have a few friends now, not many but its better then nothing. so i'm planning to go out to a restaurant and bar this Saturday. I haven't booked it yet, I even feel anxious about doing it. But I really hope it will be a nice evening. A few years ago, when I organised a dinner for my birthday, it turned out to be a real disappointment. Everyone wanted to leave early and I was barely there for 2 hours
And for my actual birthday, i'm going to Eurodisney and Paris with a friend.
At first, I was looking forward to it, but now i'm kind of dreading it. But it's a catch 22 situation as I want to do something nice for my 30th birthday but I do feel anxious about going away and fear I may not enjoy it. I paid and booked it all now so I have to go as I definitely don't want to lose my money.
I just wish I could find a nice partner, but people who I like aren't interested in me and i'm not interested in people who are interested in me
Sorry to rant, I feel quite embarrassed posting this. Has anyone here felt the same or similar to how I feel? And has anyone here been to Eurodisney and how did you find it? Thank you
I really want to celebrate it as I never really celebrated my birthdays in the past due to my anxieties and lack of confidence which made it hard for me to make friends.
I guess one reason I don't want to turn 30 is the fact that I never enjoyed my younger years. I often hear of people saying how they partied and had a lot of fun when they were younger, something which I never really experienced which make me feel sad
I do have a few friends now, not many but its better then nothing. so i'm planning to go out to a restaurant and bar this Saturday. I haven't booked it yet, I even feel anxious about doing it. But I really hope it will be a nice evening. A few years ago, when I organised a dinner for my birthday, it turned out to be a real disappointment. Everyone wanted to leave early and I was barely there for 2 hours
And for my actual birthday, i'm going to Eurodisney and Paris with a friend.
At first, I was looking forward to it, but now i'm kind of dreading it. But it's a catch 22 situation as I want to do something nice for my 30th birthday but I do feel anxious about going away and fear I may not enjoy it. I paid and booked it all now so I have to go as I definitely don't want to lose my money.
I just wish I could find a nice partner, but people who I like aren't interested in me and i'm not interested in people who are interested in me
Sorry to rant, I feel quite embarrassed posting this. Has anyone here felt the same or similar to how I feel? And has anyone here been to Eurodisney and how did you find it? Thank you