Cookson
30-09-13, 01:15
A typical day for me Ill wake up feeling exhausted, down and brain foggy at 7:30 to go to my soul destroying job to hit the train line getting crushed joining the zombies dressed in grey.
From 9-5 I'm wishing it away, watching the clock so slow that it might stop.
Feeling major fatigue set in between 3 and 5.
And then from 8pm onwards, I have a major surge of energy and happiness, like I've broken free.
Its as if the clouds have opened up, my brain is operating at 110% I'm completely wired and on the ball with absolute focus.
My neurons are firing at full capacity and the creative juices are flowing.
I'm euphoric-completely ecstatic about life and how beautiful it is.
I conjure up vivid fantasies of how fantastic my life will be-wishing I could feel like this forever.
Such a great feeling of wellness in my body.
I end up struggling to sleep until about 12.
And then the cycle continues, I wake up the next morning back to reality. I reflect on last night which feels as distant as a faint dream to how I feel now. Back to working my life away just to live but I'm not living.
I wright this now at 12:51 which is my 'peak' time.
I often see myself as having two personalities- an insecure, unhappy broken version. And the ubber happy, confident off the stage, feeling good in my own skin version of me.
Does anyone else experience this?
From 9-5 I'm wishing it away, watching the clock so slow that it might stop.
Feeling major fatigue set in between 3 and 5.
And then from 8pm onwards, I have a major surge of energy and happiness, like I've broken free.
Its as if the clouds have opened up, my brain is operating at 110% I'm completely wired and on the ball with absolute focus.
My neurons are firing at full capacity and the creative juices are flowing.
I'm euphoric-completely ecstatic about life and how beautiful it is.
I conjure up vivid fantasies of how fantastic my life will be-wishing I could feel like this forever.
Such a great feeling of wellness in my body.
I end up struggling to sleep until about 12.
And then the cycle continues, I wake up the next morning back to reality. I reflect on last night which feels as distant as a faint dream to how I feel now. Back to working my life away just to live but I'm not living.
I wright this now at 12:51 which is my 'peak' time.
I often see myself as having two personalities- an insecure, unhappy broken version. And the ubber happy, confident off the stage, feeling good in my own skin version of me.
Does anyone else experience this?