My boredom and stressful life makes me want to masturbate almost daily

[JCRyanDenton]

Its not easy being a high functioning borderline normal person in a special ed school. Especially since you are around people whom most of them have the mental age of a 12 year old and poor social skills (in turn, not allowing me to learn social skills from each other). Also doesn't help my sexual hormones have been rather out of control lately, and these special ed schools hardly have any females to talk to. I keep masturbating since i can't seem to talk to females in real life since i am hardly able to be around them (and it isn't in mainstream where you may be just shy, i am literally able to be around them due to the way the school is). I desperately want to talk to more females right now and im worried im going to end up being some socially awkward idiot when i am out of these special ed schools. I couldn't even control myself when talking to one a while back and i complimented her voice, in response she got her friends to scold me for doing that since she already had a boyfriend. Although i wasn't planning for that to even be seen as romantically hitting on her. This happened online obviously, have never hitted on a girl in person before (and i honestly hope i don't have to).

Its not the biggest problem i face with special ed (being unhappy with hardly any concept of how teenagers these days act), but its one i would love to see addressed, but its almost impossible right now which sucks.

[theharvestmouse]

How old are you? Does the school not allow you to mix with any females at all? Are there any out of school activities you could try to meet people?

Masturbation is normal but try not to let it become an obsession.

[JCRyanDenton]

How old are you? Does the school not allow you to mix with any females at all? Are there any out of school activities you could try to meet people?

Masturbation is normal but try not to let it become an obsession.

Im 17, the school isn't against it just its not a good environment due to the fact the females there have severe mental issues (to the point its not easy to communicate due to vastly different thought processes, and no this isn't like some ordinary person thinking differently). And i can't seem to find any out of school activities right now. Im hoping college will be a little better in that regard but im not going to try too hard to make friends there. The school is going to allow me to go to college soon i hope...i can't stand to see another screaming child out of control right now.

[Fishmanpa]

Hmmm... 17 years old and masturbating almost daily... Sounds pretty normal to me! When I was 17, not only were my hormones in full rage, but I was still having night emissions on top of masturbating almost daily ~lol~

You need a Cougar to take you under her wing. It'd be good for both of you!

Good Luck!

PS... kudos for posting this on a public forum... that took some nads!

[JCRyanDenton]

Hmmm... 17 years old and masturbating almost daily... Sounds pretty normal to me! When I was 17, not only were my hormones in full rage, but I was still having night emissions on top of masturbating almost daily ~lol~

You need a Cougar to take you under her wing. It'd be good for both of you!

Good Luck!

PS... kudos for posting this on a public forum... that took some nads!

Thats exactly what i want, and i know its normal for me at my age.

[Thomas1993]

I'm 20 just now and I think at that age I was probably the same. Towards the start of me being 17 I was still a virgin and I was masterbating frequently (sometimes 3 a day). I got such a thrill off it but yet was frustrating to know I couldn't get what I was wanting. But things work out don't worry- be patient. You're young and have a high sex drive...embrace it my friend!

[JCRyanDenton]

I'm 20 just now and I think at that age I was probably the same. Towards the start of me being 17 I was still a virgin and I was masterbating frequently (sometimes 3 a day). I got such a thrill off it but yet was frustrating to know I couldn't get what I was wanting. But things work out don't worry- be patient. You're young and have a high sex drive...embrace it my friend!

Did you go to a special ed school? I can assure you its quite different. And i haven't lusted over any real girls in my life either. Just porn online. Thats how femaleless my life is due to being in special ed.

[Thomas1993]

I had no female in my life but something's always around the corner you've just got to wait.

[Kenna5027]

Have you tried meeting people outside of school? Maybe joining some sort of club or organization? I don't know if you are religious, but churches are a good place to start - even if you don't want to volunteer with the church itself, you can usually find other volunteer opportunities through it.

[JCRyanDenton]

Have you tried meeting people outside of school? Maybe joining some sort of club or organization? I don't know if you are religious, but churches are a good place to start - even if you don't want to volunteer with the church itself, you can usually find other volunteer opportunities through it.

I tried meeting an old friend once. He turned on me due to being in a skype call with some perverted friends of mine (no longer my friends btw) that i had no control over. And thats really about it. Haven't joined any clubs and i am not religious. I am doing volunteer work at a charity shop but haven't met any people around my age yet.

I am hopefully going to college in a few weeks so i might have some social opportunities there since it won't be a special ed environment.

I feel worried everytime i bring it up that people will think im insulting autistic people. The thing is, i am fine with autistic people. I think many can be fun people to talk to. But in special ed many of the kids there are there because they were too out of control or unintelligent to go to mainstream. Those are the two kinds i have met when it comes to autistics. The others are kids who behaved badly (i fall into that category, but my behavior has improved and it depends on my mood too).

[Fishmanpa]

I don't know if you are religious, but churches are a good place to start

I don't think a good church going girl is what JC needs, if you know what I mean ~lol~

[JCRyanDenton]

I don't think a good church going girl is what JC needs, if you know what I mean ~lol~

Nope. Need someone thats fun to be around and has a sort of boyish attitude to them.

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Plus, unlike some im not interested in it for a purely sexual reason. I want to have fun with the person too hanging out and chatting, not just the love making part (if it ever got that far).

[JCRyanDenton]

Ugh its so frustrating. I want to get out of this horrible special ed environment so i can interact with females!

I doubt i will be able to act well, its been so long i will be like a fish out of water to these people.

[Rennie1989]

Ask your parents to push the school to get you to college. My cousin, who has autism, was in a special education boarding school up until he was 16 and then went to a mainstream college doing a mainstream course. You wouldn't think he has autism, he's flourished massively and is fantastic to see! It would do you the world of good.

[JCRyanDenton]

Ask your parents to push the school to get you to college. My cousin, who has autism, was in a special education boarding school up until he was 16 and then went to a mainstream college doing a mainstream course. You wouldn't think he has autism, he's flourished massively and is fantastic to see! It would do you the world of good.

Im glad to hear he flourished despite those circumstances! My mother is having a meeting with them tomorrow and i hope they can get me into a college. I need to have more positive experiences since i have just been around terrible bland people (in the special ed schools, they are either one note, as in only talk about internet or movies/games from my experience, or incredibly aggressive for no real reason. There was one boy at my previous special ed school who was so aggressive he made the atmosphere of any room he was in hostile) for the past 7 years. I feel that they are trying to make me "earn" the right to be around normal people. That makes me sick.

[Rennie1989]

I'm sorry about that :( hopefully the meeting goes well for you, let us know how it goes!

[debs71]

Hi JC,

I can relate to you. Not quite in the same way, but very similar.

I went to an all girls school from 12-16 years. It was a nightmare frankly. I was painfully shy, full of insecurities, but also a total romantic. Although I was clueless when it came to boys, by the time I was mid teens, I was fuming that my parents made me go to a single sex school, which gave me no opportunity to meet and talk to boys, and to just socialise with the other sex.

To be honest, I left school totally naive and with no idea of boys at all. I also didn't really mix with boys outside of school either, due to my shyness and the fact my friends and I were all of the same nature that way.

I will say this to you - once you get to college, things DO change, and you will get a chance to mix with the opposite sex and build friendships. I think a lot of people don't realise how much of big deal and how important it is for someone's future relationships and interpersonal experiences, to actually get used to mixing with the opposite sex. I know it affected me greatly.

I am now 42 years old, and I have had only three 'proper' involvements with men, and I didn't even have my first kiss until i was 19 years old, but a lot of my confidence and experience has been built up well after my school/college years.

You are still young, and there is no rush for you at all. You will find that your world will open up as you go through life, and you will get to be around and meet people, and although it feels limiting now, it won't always be that way.

In terms of the masturbation, well frankly I would be worried if you WEREN'T doing that, lol. Nothing to be concerned about there at all!:winks:

[JCRyanDenton]

Hi JC,

I can relate to you. Not quite in the same way, but very similar.

I went to an all girls school from 12-16 years. It was a nightmare frankly. I was painfully shy, full of insecurities, but also a total romantic. Although I was clueless when it came to boys, by the time I was mid teens, I was fuming that my parents made me go to a single sex school, which gave me no opportunity to meet and talk to boys, and to just socialise with the other sex.

To be honest, I left school totally naive and with no idea of boys at all. I also didn't really mix with boys outside of school either, due to my shyness and the fact my friends and I were all of the same nature that way.

I will say this to you - once you get to college, things DO change, and you will get a chance to mix with the opposite sex and build friendships. I think a lot of people don't realise how much of big deal and how important it is for someone's future relationships and interpersonal experiences, to actually get used to mixing with the opposite sex. I know it affected me greatly.

I am now 42 years old, and I have had only three 'proper' involvements with men, and I didn't even have my first kiss until i was 19 years old, but a lot of my confidence and experience has been built up well after my school/college years.

You are still young, and there is no rush for you at all. You will find that your world will open up as you go through life, and you will get to be around and meet people, and although it feels limiting now, it won't always be that way.

In terms of the masturbation, well frankly I would be worried if you WEREN'T doing that, lol. Nothing to be concerned about there at all!:winks:

I can imagine how frustrating that must have been. At least it wasn't a special needs school where you had to lower your standards to even talk to any of the pupils around you.

[debs71]

Yep, I can understand what you mean. That must be tough.

[JCRyanDenton]

So my mother had the meeting, they are going to work on getting me a day release at college before i go full time. Quite frankly i am satisfied with that. Though i do hope it comes soon, i am dying to get away from the autistics. No longer will i have people moan at me for "being mean to the autistics" when thats not the case at all. I just simply want to be around normal people who aren't going to make me anxious about accidentally offending them. Plus most of them make me feel like i am still in primary school and holding me back from the life i should be having at this age.

[bigh123]

i went to a single sec school and left absolutely hopeless around girls . I was fine around mates girlfriends but useless around girls i couldve tried to ask out . I was a virgin until 21 and i loved porn and ****ing lol .

id say try and get a life outside of your education, do you like martial arts at all that's a good way of meeting people

[JCRyanDenton]

i went to a single sec school and left absolutely hopeless around girls . I was fine around mates girlfriends but useless around girls i couldve tried to ask out . I was a virgin until 21 and i loved porn and ****ing lol .

id say try and get a life outside of your education, do you like martial arts at all that's a good way of meeting people

Its mainly due to my area being rather dull, not a very good place for socialising i think. I never even met a real friend's girlfriend before either and never ever asked a girl out before in my life. It doesn't help with the circumstances of a special ed school, where the pupils are pretty much babies who still live with a primary school mentality of sorts. At least from my experiences.

[Tessar]

I am now 42 years old, and I have had only three 'proper' involvements with men, and I didn't even have my first kiss until i was 19 years old, but a lot of my confidence and experience has been built up well after my school/college years.

You are still young, and there is no rush for you at all. You will find that your world will open up as you go through life, and you will get to be around and meet people, and although it feels limiting now, it won't always be that way.

In terms of the masturbation, well frankly I would be worried if you WEREN'T doing that, lol. Nothing to be concerned about there at all!:winks:

Well, I'm 50 & only ever had one serious relationship in my life. I did go to a mixed school. The only boy I was really interested in asked me out but then chickened out, I saw him years later & he apologised which I thought was really sweet of him. I was quite upset at the time. I had my first kiss at 18 with a boy at college but he turned out to be a bit "odd" (peeping Tim). After that I buried my head in hobbies Until I about 18yrs ago when I met my partner. I'd fought my feelings & felt confused about my sexuality for a long time & finally found the person I want to be with. It was scary to take the leap but since I never though I would find anyone but I am glad I did.
I agree that masturbating is totally natural. I recall it being an amazing experience to discover something so pleasurable. Hopefully when you get to college, JCR, things will Improve. Wishing you well.

[JCRyanDenton]

Ugh i still can't stop. I have been trying dating sites recently too since i have been getting that desperate but i can't find anyone interesting to talk to. I end up closing those accounts pretty quickly too. I just want some real physical interaction right about now for crying out loud. Ive also drunken two cans of beer today and i am just getting really lonely.

[JCRyanDenton]

My depression is getting really really bad now. The symptoms i am getting are rather horrid (some issues with my eyelids feeling heavy and shutting all the time) and i need some change now. OH, and i must avoid any negativity until i do, since stress makes me insanely tired and drains me at the moment.

[harasgenster]

It doesn't sound like the situation you are in suits you. Are you saying that where you are they have mixed those with special educational needs with those who have behavioural problems? I would have thought the two were very different.

But anyway, I assume that if you were expelled from a mainstream school for behavioural problems then you have access to a counsellor of some sort at your school? Or some kind of support person? Have you tried telling them that you feel being cooped up in a somewhat artificial environment is causing you stress? What is their opinion on all of this? And what is your parents opinion/concerns?

[bigh123]

to me it sounds like you are trapped in tottally the wrong enviroment , it doesn't sound like you suffer the issues your surrounding schoolmates do .

[StarryBlueGal]

I don't understand why you are in a special needs school for autistic people when you are not autistic. Why are you there, is it because of your behaviour? You should be in a special needs school for behavioural problem children, not autistic children... that is wrong. I can understand why you feel frustrated as it is in the wrong environment for you. I went to special needs schools myself - but you seem to have some sort of learning difficulties, that is why you are there at the special needs school?

[hardy har har]

You`ll have plenty of opportunities to meet people at college. Watching porn to much or as a learning guide for what women are like, is not reality for most of us. I`m sure like most youth, you`d like to skip the formalities and get right to it...but it`s not like that in the real world unless you have some extra cash lying about.

If you think you have a severe problem with talking to people, you may have a social phobia...or like you said, there just aren`t the right sort of girls worth meeting where you are at the moment.

My advice is to use porn just to get off, but not linger in a site or obsess searching and looking about...bad habit...it can hurt your ego and your true sense of yourself, who you are.

I watched this today just by chance at Youtube;
' Teens Hooked On Girls ' (I can`t post a link here yet)
It`s about teens and how they deal with internet porn.
It doesn`t get into too much detail, but it`s worth a watch.