Hypo
03-10-13, 19:36
This feeling of doom that I am about to die and leave my kids?
I rushed to the GP last week with a swollen tonsil and a lymph node, he said it was tonsillitis as they had white spots on them and had a temp.
Finish my antibiotics tomorrow but tonsil is still huge. Back to GP tomorrow. Will I look silly if I take my husband in with me as I am panicking?
I have spent TWO HOURS this evening with a torch looking at my mouth. I found red bits, white bits etc etc. I went to the dentist for a clean only three weeks ago and he said everything was fine.
I am tired. My jaw hurts from having it open for 2 hours. I got stuck, could not leave the mirror and dh was walking so he couldn't stop me.
I am scared the GP will say it's cancer of the tonsil. If he doesn't it doesn't matter, the red bit will be cancer, if not that the pain in my stomach will be cancer.
It's there somewhere.
BTW My three children's father (my ex) has Hodgkin's non lymphoma. It has came back again after he had a stem cell transplant. It just keeps coming back ever time he finishes treatment. My kid's lives have been turned upside down already.
I rushed to the GP last week with a swollen tonsil and a lymph node, he said it was tonsillitis as they had white spots on them and had a temp.
Finish my antibiotics tomorrow but tonsil is still huge. Back to GP tomorrow. Will I look silly if I take my husband in with me as I am panicking?
I have spent TWO HOURS this evening with a torch looking at my mouth. I found red bits, white bits etc etc. I went to the dentist for a clean only three weeks ago and he said everything was fine.
I am tired. My jaw hurts from having it open for 2 hours. I got stuck, could not leave the mirror and dh was walking so he couldn't stop me.
I am scared the GP will say it's cancer of the tonsil. If he doesn't it doesn't matter, the red bit will be cancer, if not that the pain in my stomach will be cancer.
It's there somewhere.
BTW My three children's father (my ex) has Hodgkin's non lymphoma. It has came back again after he had a stem cell transplant. It just keeps coming back ever time he finishes treatment. My kid's lives have been turned upside down already.