JCRyanDenton
07-10-13, 19:34
My mother is freaking out about her ill mother right now. I keep begging my mother to do things that i need to happen to improve my mood since i have been in this state for 7 years. But she takes forever to do half of the things i ask and now i am getting incredibly desperate to lower my anxiety and depression, shes accusing me of thinking about myself all the damn time and not caring about her. I have had enough of needing to care for others all the time, i want to have some fun for once, but nope. Have to think of others all the time when everyone around me treats me like my life is normal despite being mostly in two rooms for the majority of my life right now.
I am forcing myself to write since i need a purpose in my life, but these people aren't allowing me to have more in my life right now. Its scary to me remaining like this forever. I want to write this novel but i can't with this ****ing stress jabbing pitchforks at the back of my head all the time. My mother always uses excuses for why i can't have fun or go to long distance places. "Its full of trash" "I need to look after the dog/mother" "Its too expensive" "I will look into it tomorrow". Half of the shit she does for me is after begging for a really long time.
MY father is a bore who doesn't give a crap about my feelings, he doesn't even care when im feeling depressed.
I am forcing myself to write since i need a purpose in my life, but these people aren't allowing me to have more in my life right now. Its scary to me remaining like this forever. I want to write this novel but i can't with this ****ing stress jabbing pitchforks at the back of my head all the time. My mother always uses excuses for why i can't have fun or go to long distance places. "Its full of trash" "I need to look after the dog/mother" "Its too expensive" "I will look into it tomorrow". Half of the shit she does for me is after begging for a really long time.
MY father is a bore who doesn't give a crap about my feelings, he doesn't even care when im feeling depressed.