Suziqs
09-10-13, 13:53
Hello Everyone
I have just registered here having been reading lots about coming off tabs and the pros n cons
I have been on Citalpram (20mg) for the past 10 years due to being in a very controlling/mentally and physically nasty 18 year marriage. I have been Single now for 5 years but found that everytime my Ex decided to create with my Kids (who are both over 18 now) the buttons that he used to press were still there.
Last week however he did it again, and to my surprise I just got very angry (although did react afterwards with a major Panic Attack).
My friends have been superb over the years, but this time I knew that I was overreacting to something that really has nothing to do with me anymore, so having not contacted my Ex (which I believe is what he was expecting, as in my normal reaction to him) and allowing my children to deal with Him and his problem!! (which always revolves around money) I have decided that despite knowing the Panic Attacks are still there and yes they are Evil it is time to feel Normal again - in fact I just want to be Me and have my adrenalin/feelings back which have been suppressed for so long that I have forgotten how good it is to feel Alive. So as of last Friday I stopped taking my 20mg per day - yes Cold Turkey
People are telling me you cant do that, its dangerous, yes I am having dizzy spells yes I am having headaches, the panic is just underneath and raises when I am least expecting it (sounds stupid but normally when I need the Loo for some unexplainable reason or the Lights are too bright!!), but I have two fab kids who know that a cup of tea (with sugar) and a gentle stroking of my back calms me quickly, Cold Turkey is, I believe, the way for me.
That is why I have registered here today, I know I cannot do this completely on my own, have even booked a counselling session with a local anxiety Counsellor for next week, as feel that is when I am going to be able to talk coherently about all sorts of feelings I have never been able to talk about and hopefully with her help and maybe some of yours I will be able to Enjoy being Me.
Just so I make it clear my GP wont even refer me to a Counsellor as they have said I need to just accept that Life throws things at us and I should deal with it!
I have now got a BA Business Studies which I should never have got going through what I was going through, I have put on 2 stone in 5 years which has been incredibly hard as I was 6 stone after the final day I was married and I have now got my own business and am able to support myself and my children with no help from anyone anymore (my parents have been amazing but now I can stand on my own two feet).
I know I sound very confident and have achieved alot in a short space of time, but coming off these tabs is now my priority as so want to be ME, happy and able to have fun again and more than that I want to look forward to my 50th Birthday next month, knowing I DID THAT, does this sound wrong or does anyone on here understand how I feel and why all the above is all about the Start of My New Life ??
:doh:
I have just registered here having been reading lots about coming off tabs and the pros n cons
I have been on Citalpram (20mg) for the past 10 years due to being in a very controlling/mentally and physically nasty 18 year marriage. I have been Single now for 5 years but found that everytime my Ex decided to create with my Kids (who are both over 18 now) the buttons that he used to press were still there.
Last week however he did it again, and to my surprise I just got very angry (although did react afterwards with a major Panic Attack).
My friends have been superb over the years, but this time I knew that I was overreacting to something that really has nothing to do with me anymore, so having not contacted my Ex (which I believe is what he was expecting, as in my normal reaction to him) and allowing my children to deal with Him and his problem!! (which always revolves around money) I have decided that despite knowing the Panic Attacks are still there and yes they are Evil it is time to feel Normal again - in fact I just want to be Me and have my adrenalin/feelings back which have been suppressed for so long that I have forgotten how good it is to feel Alive. So as of last Friday I stopped taking my 20mg per day - yes Cold Turkey
People are telling me you cant do that, its dangerous, yes I am having dizzy spells yes I am having headaches, the panic is just underneath and raises when I am least expecting it (sounds stupid but normally when I need the Loo for some unexplainable reason or the Lights are too bright!!), but I have two fab kids who know that a cup of tea (with sugar) and a gentle stroking of my back calms me quickly, Cold Turkey is, I believe, the way for me.
That is why I have registered here today, I know I cannot do this completely on my own, have even booked a counselling session with a local anxiety Counsellor for next week, as feel that is when I am going to be able to talk coherently about all sorts of feelings I have never been able to talk about and hopefully with her help and maybe some of yours I will be able to Enjoy being Me.
Just so I make it clear my GP wont even refer me to a Counsellor as they have said I need to just accept that Life throws things at us and I should deal with it!
I have now got a BA Business Studies which I should never have got going through what I was going through, I have put on 2 stone in 5 years which has been incredibly hard as I was 6 stone after the final day I was married and I have now got my own business and am able to support myself and my children with no help from anyone anymore (my parents have been amazing but now I can stand on my own two feet).
I know I sound very confident and have achieved alot in a short space of time, but coming off these tabs is now my priority as so want to be ME, happy and able to have fun again and more than that I want to look forward to my 50th Birthday next month, knowing I DID THAT, does this sound wrong or does anyone on here understand how I feel and why all the above is all about the Start of My New Life ??
:doh: