chicaplatense1
10-10-13, 02:30
Hello everyone,
I suffer from Anxiety and sometimes Panic, at times Depression.
I feel very very lonely and keep calling people and trying to talk but even when I am around people I feel lonely.
I decided today to start a journal about my life and my struggles but I decided to put it here because I would like to make some friends that understand how I feel.
I am 36 years old and the mother of 4 children ages 14, 12, 9 and 8, all boys.
I have been married for 17 years but have been having some awful marital problems. I had a very bad relapse of Anxiety back in February and I am still trying to recover from.
Antidepressants made things worse for me: I took Celexa for 3 months and Lexapro for 3 months. I became more anxious and more Depressed and ended up going to the Mental Hospital to get away from it all. All they did there was switch me from the Celexa to the Lexapro. I stopped the Antidepressant in July and begun to feel better, however I did not feel 100% better. I am still not 100% better but I am able to function at least (which with the Anti-Depressant I almost couldn't).
I started my Masters degree in July also, have been doing great with my grades but it has been so emotionally difficult.
Anyways, you will get to know more about me as I post each day. I don't want to make this thread too long.
I just want to say that I feel very lonely. I am away from my parents and sister in this foreign country, even though I have been living here for 17 years it feels really lonely when you go through Anxiety like this. Especially when your marriage is so rocky. Today my husband texted me about how he wants to kill himself while I was at school. He has been doing that for a while now and I don't know how to help him anymore. But I Panic thinking about me alone, with 4 kids in a foreign country trying to finish a Masters degree so I can afford to pay the bills each day. I feel lonely and sad but mostly scared.
I will post a little bit more tomorrow hopefully if I get some time.
I have decided to make this my outlet because I really need to vent.
I suffer from Anxiety and sometimes Panic, at times Depression.
I feel very very lonely and keep calling people and trying to talk but even when I am around people I feel lonely.
I decided today to start a journal about my life and my struggles but I decided to put it here because I would like to make some friends that understand how I feel.
I am 36 years old and the mother of 4 children ages 14, 12, 9 and 8, all boys.
I have been married for 17 years but have been having some awful marital problems. I had a very bad relapse of Anxiety back in February and I am still trying to recover from.
Antidepressants made things worse for me: I took Celexa for 3 months and Lexapro for 3 months. I became more anxious and more Depressed and ended up going to the Mental Hospital to get away from it all. All they did there was switch me from the Celexa to the Lexapro. I stopped the Antidepressant in July and begun to feel better, however I did not feel 100% better. I am still not 100% better but I am able to function at least (which with the Anti-Depressant I almost couldn't).
I started my Masters degree in July also, have been doing great with my grades but it has been so emotionally difficult.
Anyways, you will get to know more about me as I post each day. I don't want to make this thread too long.
I just want to say that I feel very lonely. I am away from my parents and sister in this foreign country, even though I have been living here for 17 years it feels really lonely when you go through Anxiety like this. Especially when your marriage is so rocky. Today my husband texted me about how he wants to kill himself while I was at school. He has been doing that for a while now and I don't know how to help him anymore. But I Panic thinking about me alone, with 4 kids in a foreign country trying to finish a Masters degree so I can afford to pay the bills each day. I feel lonely and sad but mostly scared.
I will post a little bit more tomorrow hopefully if I get some time.
I have decided to make this my outlet because I really need to vent.