sparkely88
10-10-13, 22:03
well hey guys im 25 female! i used to suffer from severe severe panic attacks! i acually beat it so i thought lol almost 2 years ago on my own with patients and education. i havnt had a panic attack for months and months and months ahh feels great!so in the last year and a half i guess i have kind of revurted (spelling) backwards to my teens years party very hard being a fool doing stupid crap blah blah blah. i met this guy who was so amazing he made me felt like eufoic i almost got addicted to how he made me feel! like out fo a movie something ive never had before. andyways we got pregnant twice in 2 months or 3 months very close um let me explain... pull out method mmm hmmm no no doesnt work i lost the baby when i was 8 weeks. went on birth control right away um got pregnant on it uhh yaaa i might have used it wrong? lost that baby then had a scare and took a plan B then went on the stupid I.UD and bla h blah blah all that history has messed chemistry right up. now pleasse dont judge my story because i know i was a mornon however i have learned from my mistakes and have begun the challange of excepting my past!
so i used to be a bubbly happy outgoing girl i lite up a room and in the last year i have battled depression and i would never ever ever admit it because i was so afraid of depression i told myself it was hormones.
its not! its so not and i struggle every waking day every second. its brutal. im in mental pain all day everyday if im happy im faking it. the first time i admitted it was only 2 weeks ago when enough is enough, im thinking of trying st johns warts? i feel like i lost my self and im not sure why? i dont even think the same anymore. im not even as attentive to my kid why? why? why?????? why??? why am i like this? what went so wrong over the last year? when i used to get sad i would pick up a self help book and read it and feel so much better now when im sad i dont eat sleep drink water i isolate myself from everyone im in a dark place. i wish i knew what to do. this is a battle i dont know if i can win! thanks for listening
so i used to be a bubbly happy outgoing girl i lite up a room and in the last year i have battled depression and i would never ever ever admit it because i was so afraid of depression i told myself it was hormones.
its not! its so not and i struggle every waking day every second. its brutal. im in mental pain all day everyday if im happy im faking it. the first time i admitted it was only 2 weeks ago when enough is enough, im thinking of trying st johns warts? i feel like i lost my self and im not sure why? i dont even think the same anymore. im not even as attentive to my kid why? why? why?????? why??? why am i like this? what went so wrong over the last year? when i used to get sad i would pick up a self help book and read it and feel so much better now when im sad i dont eat sleep drink water i isolate myself from everyone im in a dark place. i wish i knew what to do. this is a battle i dont know if i can win! thanks for listening