djsandra
11-10-13, 03:04
Last night I didn't sleep as much as I usually do, so I slept in a bit this morning and didn't take a shower. I forgot to put on deodorant before leaving to school, and I just realized this when I was at school. I sweat a lot during school, due to feeling bored and insecure, so my sweat usually smells stronger. It really bothered me that I had no deodorant on, and I didn't have any with me, because now I would have to feel even more insecure about people smelling me and I wouldn't feel comfortable to go close to people, which is quite impractical at school. Anyways, I take this "Glade Ultra-Concentrated Air Freshener" that my mom got for me in a mini size to use if my IBS starts acting up so that I can actually do my business without worrying about the smell...that's another insecurity I have, but anyways, I take the thing, and I spray it as quickly as I can on my shirt where my left armpit is. The stuff is really strong smelling and doesn't go away, hence it being called "ultra-concentrated". I then realize that it was a stupid idea, and start to panic. I felt somewhat lightheaded and dizzy, although I'm not sure whether it was from the freshener or my shallow breathing to avoid breathing it in. It was on me for about 4 hours. I still feel kind of lightheaded and I keep having this somewhat bitter, soap-like taste in my mouth, nose and throat. I phoned my mom to come and pick me up early but she said I would be fine. I kept trying to breathe only from my right side, because every time I turned my head towards there middle or left side the smell would come. I'm really scared that I'm going to die tonight when I go to sleep...I looked on the actual package and there was only a warning to use it in well-ventilated areas but on the actual MSDS it says that misuse by inhaling can be fatal. I'm such an idiot, now I have to worry. It seems like I will never run out of things to worry about.