spartacus
13-10-13, 16:03
Hi,
I suffer with continous anxiety which totally dominates every aspect of my life at the moment. At it's most intense I am so intensely anxious I struggle to do anything and at it's least intense things are better but my mind never relaxes.
I wake up feeling terrible and very anxious and edgy but towards the end of the day I feel better but the anxiety never goes away. I struggle to sleep and eat as I'm just unable to relax and life is just an ordeal at the moment.
I went through the exact same thing 10 years ago and after trying to convince myself that things would at some point improve ( they didn't ) I started taking beta blockers and citalopram.
It took a long time but eventually things gradually improved and I did return to my old self.
But now I have to confront this monster once more and 23 days ago I started on citalopram once more.
The initial side effects were very intense and 3 days later my anxiety was just unbearable so my gp prescribed diazepam for the worst moments.
I guess I'm still waiting for the citalopram to really kick in as I still feel terrible but at least I know that it has worked for me before so that's what is keeping me going and optimistic.
I also do spin and pilates which I'm sure helps in some way even though I don't see that at the time.
So, I'm back at work tomorrow after having the last 3 weeks off on the sick and trying to get a routine back in my life and hoping that things will get better as the weeks go on.
I suffer with continous anxiety which totally dominates every aspect of my life at the moment. At it's most intense I am so intensely anxious I struggle to do anything and at it's least intense things are better but my mind never relaxes.
I wake up feeling terrible and very anxious and edgy but towards the end of the day I feel better but the anxiety never goes away. I struggle to sleep and eat as I'm just unable to relax and life is just an ordeal at the moment.
I went through the exact same thing 10 years ago and after trying to convince myself that things would at some point improve ( they didn't ) I started taking beta blockers and citalopram.
It took a long time but eventually things gradually improved and I did return to my old self.
But now I have to confront this monster once more and 23 days ago I started on citalopram once more.
The initial side effects were very intense and 3 days later my anxiety was just unbearable so my gp prescribed diazepam for the worst moments.
I guess I'm still waiting for the citalopram to really kick in as I still feel terrible but at least I know that it has worked for me before so that's what is keeping me going and optimistic.
I also do spin and pilates which I'm sure helps in some way even though I don't see that at the time.
So, I'm back at work tomorrow after having the last 3 weeks off on the sick and trying to get a routine back in my life and hoping that things will get better as the weeks go on.