CRM
14-10-13, 14:42
Hi everyone,
I'll try to keep this simple. Basically, I started having anxiety attacks after smoking weed and tripping out ( causing blackouts ) i was so scared of it happening again that I had anxiety constantly and felt uncomfortable all the time. I got a lot better and started taking sertaline but wasn't overly dependant on items so when I got pregnant I came off no problem. I was ok still got anxiety but was no worse. Then my son as diagnosed as being very poorly and I lost it before and after he was born I got depression and started having obsessive thoughts that I was going to lose the plot /have a breakdown. I had council long and went back onto the sertaline although religiously this time and over the last year I have got ALOT better.
My question is.. My anxiety is still 'there' and I'm still sometimes obsessing like if I have a good day / meal out etc I'm questioning it. I'm thinking.. Was I ok ? Have I just got so insane I'm not even noticing I'm not ok ? I know this so ridiculous deep down I know I'm fine but it's scary . I also watched a disturbing film last night and was up all night thinking ' what if I did that ? ' ' what if I flipped ' I'm so worried that it's all going to become too much and I'm just gonna breakdown ... However, saying all that I feel better than I did which unnerves me !
Has any ever had this ? What I wanted to ask was I'm on 25mg I used to take 50 but I was far too spaced out and had bad derealisation on them and I also was quite 'emotionless' which I didn't like 25mg has been my best dose however I'm not brilliant on it so thinking I should maybe go to 12.5mg see how I am and taper off ? I'm thinking it might be the tabs making me over think ? What do you guys think ?
Btw I'm 27 healthy and have a lovely life I'm very happy and know I am of sane mine all the more why all this is so distressing !
TIA xxx
I'll try to keep this simple. Basically, I started having anxiety attacks after smoking weed and tripping out ( causing blackouts ) i was so scared of it happening again that I had anxiety constantly and felt uncomfortable all the time. I got a lot better and started taking sertaline but wasn't overly dependant on items so when I got pregnant I came off no problem. I was ok still got anxiety but was no worse. Then my son as diagnosed as being very poorly and I lost it before and after he was born I got depression and started having obsessive thoughts that I was going to lose the plot /have a breakdown. I had council long and went back onto the sertaline although religiously this time and over the last year I have got ALOT better.
My question is.. My anxiety is still 'there' and I'm still sometimes obsessing like if I have a good day / meal out etc I'm questioning it. I'm thinking.. Was I ok ? Have I just got so insane I'm not even noticing I'm not ok ? I know this so ridiculous deep down I know I'm fine but it's scary . I also watched a disturbing film last night and was up all night thinking ' what if I did that ? ' ' what if I flipped ' I'm so worried that it's all going to become too much and I'm just gonna breakdown ... However, saying all that I feel better than I did which unnerves me !
Has any ever had this ? What I wanted to ask was I'm on 25mg I used to take 50 but I was far too spaced out and had bad derealisation on them and I also was quite 'emotionless' which I didn't like 25mg has been my best dose however I'm not brilliant on it so thinking I should maybe go to 12.5mg see how I am and taper off ? I'm thinking it might be the tabs making me over think ? What do you guys think ?
Btw I'm 27 healthy and have a lovely life I'm very happy and know I am of sane mine all the more why all this is so distressing !
TIA xxx