OwenF
22-10-13, 23:25
Here goes...
A year ago I changed jobs, this was a bad move. Day one my "crazy mood" kicked in - why did I do this, I'm going to be fired etc. I had been with that company for 10yrs was respected and head hunted for my current role.
I've been on/off meds and don't go back to the docs because I looking after myself is low priority compared to family, worrying about work and drinking helps / doesn't need a prescription or lying about how much better I feel
Today I had an interview with the previous company (this took a lot) - I'm worried about what I will do if I don't get it as going to work makes me feel sick, not that I'm effective when I'm there anyway (headless panicking chicken comes to mind) every time I get an email it sets of crazy mood worrying about what I haven't done and when I will be sacked.
It's funny - used to exercise a lot, socialise and be happy. Now I'm a quivering recluse. When I'm in a bad place I shut down with friends which makes me worse - I admitted to close friends (when drunk) the issues I'm having everyone.
Writing this I'm numb - can I get a new brain please
A year ago I changed jobs, this was a bad move. Day one my "crazy mood" kicked in - why did I do this, I'm going to be fired etc. I had been with that company for 10yrs was respected and head hunted for my current role.
I've been on/off meds and don't go back to the docs because I looking after myself is low priority compared to family, worrying about work and drinking helps / doesn't need a prescription or lying about how much better I feel
Today I had an interview with the previous company (this took a lot) - I'm worried about what I will do if I don't get it as going to work makes me feel sick, not that I'm effective when I'm there anyway (headless panicking chicken comes to mind) every time I get an email it sets of crazy mood worrying about what I haven't done and when I will be sacked.
It's funny - used to exercise a lot, socialise and be happy. Now I'm a quivering recluse. When I'm in a bad place I shut down with friends which makes me worse - I admitted to close friends (when drunk) the issues I'm having everyone.
Writing this I'm numb - can I get a new brain please