Jem27
01-11-06, 13:00
I went to see him today to get my blood results, iron still low so im popping pills for another few months[Ugh]
While there we were just chatting and he asked if I was ok, he said he could sense there was something wrong and like an idiot I started shaking and burst into tears. I have never cried infront of him and so I felt rather stupid.
He sat back in his chair and told me to tell him everything. I was in there for 20 minutes. I told him about what I had done and he was just lovely, even told me a few things to make me feel better about myself, he said most of us have been where I am in our marriage. He said I shouldn't beat myself up and he said if sex did happen then im not a slapper or a hussie, whatever I think of myself its just not true. We chatted for a long time and did his upmost to make me feel better, aparently im to move on and put this behind me, not tell my husband and work on my marriage.
In 3 weeks he wants to see me again and he will run a HIV test plus a few other things to put my mind at ease but he said the chance is very slim as if I did sleep with this man its 1 incident and that lowers the risk aparently. I am very scared but in 3 weeks time I can hopefully relax and put this behind me totally.
As I was leaving he called my name and said 'julie thank you for telling me, im glad you feel you can come to me' I then thanked him for listening. What a lovely lovely man, is wife is a very lucky lady:)
Today I feel very tired, sort of weak/tired muscles in my thighs which feel quite heavy and shaky when I walk?????? and my head feels light and dizzy. Can stress be causing all of this????? me being an idiot I read about HIV and read that between 2-6 weeks after being infected a person can feel unwell so im freting.
Thanks for your kind words the other day, I really do not deserve them:(
While there we were just chatting and he asked if I was ok, he said he could sense there was something wrong and like an idiot I started shaking and burst into tears. I have never cried infront of him and so I felt rather stupid.
He sat back in his chair and told me to tell him everything. I was in there for 20 minutes. I told him about what I had done and he was just lovely, even told me a few things to make me feel better about myself, he said most of us have been where I am in our marriage. He said I shouldn't beat myself up and he said if sex did happen then im not a slapper or a hussie, whatever I think of myself its just not true. We chatted for a long time and did his upmost to make me feel better, aparently im to move on and put this behind me, not tell my husband and work on my marriage.
In 3 weeks he wants to see me again and he will run a HIV test plus a few other things to put my mind at ease but he said the chance is very slim as if I did sleep with this man its 1 incident and that lowers the risk aparently. I am very scared but in 3 weeks time I can hopefully relax and put this behind me totally.
As I was leaving he called my name and said 'julie thank you for telling me, im glad you feel you can come to me' I then thanked him for listening. What a lovely lovely man, is wife is a very lucky lady:)
Today I feel very tired, sort of weak/tired muscles in my thighs which feel quite heavy and shaky when I walk?????? and my head feels light and dizzy. Can stress be causing all of this????? me being an idiot I read about HIV and read that between 2-6 weeks after being infected a person can feel unwell so im freting.
Thanks for your kind words the other day, I really do not deserve them:(