Icequeen
23-10-13, 19:55
so I'm 5 weeks in, past week has been 30mg but before that was 20mg...
just a bit of an update / vent...
to be honest I'm feeling utterly rubbish :-(
sleeping is hard, I use a fragrance lamp and sleeping tablets and it takes a good hour or two to nod off, then I wake up after about 3 or 4 hours, then its just broken sleep til my alarm goes off at 6, but I don't want to get up and lay in bed til 7.... I have to leave for work at 730 so then I'm in a rush but no matter how much I tell myself to get up, I just can't.
my days are rough, feeling down and very scared... scares about 'tomorrow' but I try and just tackle day by day, but I cannot shift this constant worry... worry of being alone, worry bout all the what ifs... my head and eyes hurt, I feel sick and actually am sick a lot if i get myself really worked up.
in try the happy "I'm OK" but I struggle with even that, everything annoys me...
I just want r feel better :'(
xx
just a bit of an update / vent...
to be honest I'm feeling utterly rubbish :-(
sleeping is hard, I use a fragrance lamp and sleeping tablets and it takes a good hour or two to nod off, then I wake up after about 3 or 4 hours, then its just broken sleep til my alarm goes off at 6, but I don't want to get up and lay in bed til 7.... I have to leave for work at 730 so then I'm in a rush but no matter how much I tell myself to get up, I just can't.
my days are rough, feeling down and very scared... scares about 'tomorrow' but I try and just tackle day by day, but I cannot shift this constant worry... worry of being alone, worry bout all the what ifs... my head and eyes hurt, I feel sick and actually am sick a lot if i get myself really worked up.
in try the happy "I'm OK" but I struggle with even that, everything annoys me...
I just want r feel better :'(
xx