Hollykay1
23-10-13, 22:22
Where to start. Well i'm new here. This is from the book "At Last a Life" Right? i'm not even sure. I have joined so many of these things. Anyways, i have had Anxiety/Panic disorder for about 4 years now. When i first got Anxiety i knew nothing about it, so i was on Paxil Cr 12.5 mg for about 5 months. I was doing better and decided i wanted off. I came off and had the worse withdrawal symptoms. After they went away I did good without medicine for 2 years. This was a breathing fear. Always felt like i couldn't breathe. Well last October i was at Walmart shopping for my Daughter's 1st birthday party and i told my boyfriend..i feel "weird". He said it's just your Anxiety and i thought nothing of it and as we were leaving my whole body just got weak and i felt very faint. I was freaking out and so scared i thought i was dying, because i never felt like this before. I never experienced it. After this i went to the doctors and i became housebound for a month or so. I said this is enough and started seeing a CBT therapist, which i still go to. She has helped me a lot but now i'm stuck again. It's October and i'm stuck in the house again. I'm scared to be alone or go anywhere alone. I'm terrified of this feeling i get. My therapist recommended me to go see a psychiatrist but i refuse to take Medicine. I want to overcome this without Medication. Except for i have been taking Ativan for a year..but i mean like a ssri. Any help would be appreciated. My boyfriend and i are fighting over this now. I really need my life back. I want to be the mom/girlfriend i always wanted to be. Not be scared to leave my house for the fear of getting the passing out feeling.I should be able to take my kid wherever and not have to worry about getting scared or Anxious. Will i ever feel normal again? I use to be so independent :weep: