costagirl
25-10-13, 13:35
Hi there,
I am at Uni in my final year and I've been prescribed citalopram for anxiety and depression which has been creeping on for a couple of months now, various things happened in the Summer which may have contributed to this but I thought that being at Uni would make me feel happier. It did for a week or so, but suddenly I just found myself feeling so restless, like I didn't know what to do with myself and constantly thinking that the future will be rubbish! I've lost interest in things that would normally motivate me and make me happy, and I've had so many thoughts about why we're here and what the meaning of life is, it's horrible! The doctor said this is called derealisation and is a symptom of anxiety...
Anyway so I've been taking 10mg Citalopram every morning for a week now and I wouldn't say I really feel any better. I still feel restless, and the mornings are horrendous, I just don't want to get up and face the day but lying in bed in a way makes it worse so eventually I just pull myself out of bed. I have no concentration in lectures and I've struggled to have any motivation to do my work, I just have to force myself to and think that I will cause more problems by not doing it. It doesn't help that the work load for final year is already high. I have a dissertation to be thinking about and I just can't motivate myself! I keep thinking about death, and then feeling guilty for thinking about it, I don't want to hurt myself and I wouldn't, but the feeling that things might not get better is awful and hard to handle! It's like I keep switching from the horrid thoughts to suddenly feeling (slightly) more positive. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing control and going crazy!
I feel much better in the evenings just before bed... almost completely happy and normal and I don't know why this is, has anyone else experienced this?
I was just wondering if anyone else has any advice or has had any of these feelings on citalopram?
The doctors have been fairly helpful - I have rung them twice in the last week or so after feeling desperate to check that what I've been feeling is just side effects while the tablets kick in and they have told me to try and stick it out. I've been on the tablets for a week now and so far don't feel much better at all!
:weep:
I am at Uni in my final year and I've been prescribed citalopram for anxiety and depression which has been creeping on for a couple of months now, various things happened in the Summer which may have contributed to this but I thought that being at Uni would make me feel happier. It did for a week or so, but suddenly I just found myself feeling so restless, like I didn't know what to do with myself and constantly thinking that the future will be rubbish! I've lost interest in things that would normally motivate me and make me happy, and I've had so many thoughts about why we're here and what the meaning of life is, it's horrible! The doctor said this is called derealisation and is a symptom of anxiety...
Anyway so I've been taking 10mg Citalopram every morning for a week now and I wouldn't say I really feel any better. I still feel restless, and the mornings are horrendous, I just don't want to get up and face the day but lying in bed in a way makes it worse so eventually I just pull myself out of bed. I have no concentration in lectures and I've struggled to have any motivation to do my work, I just have to force myself to and think that I will cause more problems by not doing it. It doesn't help that the work load for final year is already high. I have a dissertation to be thinking about and I just can't motivate myself! I keep thinking about death, and then feeling guilty for thinking about it, I don't want to hurt myself and I wouldn't, but the feeling that things might not get better is awful and hard to handle! It's like I keep switching from the horrid thoughts to suddenly feeling (slightly) more positive. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing control and going crazy!
I feel much better in the evenings just before bed... almost completely happy and normal and I don't know why this is, has anyone else experienced this?
I was just wondering if anyone else has any advice or has had any of these feelings on citalopram?
The doctors have been fairly helpful - I have rung them twice in the last week or so after feeling desperate to check that what I've been feeling is just side effects while the tablets kick in and they have told me to try and stick it out. I've been on the tablets for a week now and so far don't feel much better at all!
:weep: