Bam_bam
26-10-13, 22:56
Ok I could do with some advice. I had to take 4 weeks off work (part time job) when I started panicking and two weeks into that I started my citalopram. Basically I ran out of money recently and felt ready to work again and I did two shifts this week. Problem is my work involves me stood in a cafe by myself for 6 hours (it's a really quiet cafe) and so I have always struggled to not get carried away in my thoughts as there are very few distractions and the prep work I do is mundane and boring.
So these two shifts back have each sent me into setback mode which has taken me a good two days to get over from each time because the place itself reminds me of when I was struggling most with pure-o also I've been keeping relatively busy and active outside of work so haven't been bothered by my thoughts nearly as much. So three weeks into my medication I'm wondering if its a bad idea going to work before I've properly stabilised? I'm feeling very vulnerable when I'm there as I know what spare time and too much thinking can do. I just wondered if I could have some genuine advice on whether it was a good idea to go back to work this early on in my meds? I don't want to ruin my chances of feeling stable (I've been doing really really well) by putting myself in a situation which could aggravate that. I'm aware that stopping work again would technically be avoidance however I'm genuinely getting on with everything else aside from this ( seeing friends, doing my Uni work, doing exercise) so I'm not cooped up in my room or anything.
General feedback would be hugely appreciated and be honest!
So these two shifts back have each sent me into setback mode which has taken me a good two days to get over from each time because the place itself reminds me of when I was struggling most with pure-o also I've been keeping relatively busy and active outside of work so haven't been bothered by my thoughts nearly as much. So three weeks into my medication I'm wondering if its a bad idea going to work before I've properly stabilised? I'm feeling very vulnerable when I'm there as I know what spare time and too much thinking can do. I just wondered if I could have some genuine advice on whether it was a good idea to go back to work this early on in my meds? I don't want to ruin my chances of feeling stable (I've been doing really really well) by putting myself in a situation which could aggravate that. I'm aware that stopping work again would technically be avoidance however I'm genuinely getting on with everything else aside from this ( seeing friends, doing my Uni work, doing exercise) so I'm not cooped up in my room or anything.
General feedback would be hugely appreciated and be honest!