hadenough
27-10-13, 19:31
I havent been on the forum for a while for 2 reasons, firstly because Ive been so ill and secondly because I thought I should stop looking for reassurance all the time but I really need to talk about how Im feeling.
This bout of depression and anxiety has lasted 3 months so far, it started with a prolonged bout of diarrhoea at the end of July which sent me into full panic mode. I was convinced it was a serious illness and, because I was in such a state about it, the gp sent me for cancer marker blood tests for stomach, bowel, pancreatic and ovarian cancer to put my mind at rest. They all came back normal but I had started to lose a lot of weight so the worry has just continued. The gp tried to convince me that its quite common to lose weight when youre in such a constant state of high anxiety. I have been eating normally for some time now but cant put any weight back on. Im too scared to get on the scales as I dont want to know how much Ive lost but my clothes are all baggy and my skin is saggy (Im not young). I also had a full set of blood tests for the usual things done in May which had all been normal.
I have been under a lot of stress for the past 14 months and I know this hasnt helped. I moved house a month ago with my husband and my mum lives with us now so there have been a lot of changes.
I have had to register with a new gp due to moving so she doesnt know anything about my medical history apart from what Ive told her. She has referred me for counselling and I have a phone assessment on wednesday so hoping I wont have to wait for too long.
I am beside myself as I feel so physically unwell and its been going on for so long. I am tired all the time, I have no interest in anything, I cant sleep and Im constantly crying. My head feels fuzzy a lot of the time and I feel like things arent real. I get up in the mornings only to make it as far as the sofa.
I know that you can get lots of symptoms from depression and anxiety but this is by far the worst I have ever been. I am totally obssessed by my weight loss, I think about it all the time and am convinced that it is caused by something bad.
The new gp has asked if I will have some baseline bloods done even though I told her that everything done before came back normal. I also had diarrhoea again the other morning and she asked if Id ever had a camera down to check things out. This was mentioned in August but then the diarrhoea went and as the blood tests were fine it wasnt mentioned again.
Is it really possible to feel this ill for so long if theres nothing physically wrong, not sure how much more of this I can take, I am literally at my wits end with it all.
Sorry for the really long post.
This bout of depression and anxiety has lasted 3 months so far, it started with a prolonged bout of diarrhoea at the end of July which sent me into full panic mode. I was convinced it was a serious illness and, because I was in such a state about it, the gp sent me for cancer marker blood tests for stomach, bowel, pancreatic and ovarian cancer to put my mind at rest. They all came back normal but I had started to lose a lot of weight so the worry has just continued. The gp tried to convince me that its quite common to lose weight when youre in such a constant state of high anxiety. I have been eating normally for some time now but cant put any weight back on. Im too scared to get on the scales as I dont want to know how much Ive lost but my clothes are all baggy and my skin is saggy (Im not young). I also had a full set of blood tests for the usual things done in May which had all been normal.
I have been under a lot of stress for the past 14 months and I know this hasnt helped. I moved house a month ago with my husband and my mum lives with us now so there have been a lot of changes.
I have had to register with a new gp due to moving so she doesnt know anything about my medical history apart from what Ive told her. She has referred me for counselling and I have a phone assessment on wednesday so hoping I wont have to wait for too long.
I am beside myself as I feel so physically unwell and its been going on for so long. I am tired all the time, I have no interest in anything, I cant sleep and Im constantly crying. My head feels fuzzy a lot of the time and I feel like things arent real. I get up in the mornings only to make it as far as the sofa.
I know that you can get lots of symptoms from depression and anxiety but this is by far the worst I have ever been. I am totally obssessed by my weight loss, I think about it all the time and am convinced that it is caused by something bad.
The new gp has asked if I will have some baseline bloods done even though I told her that everything done before came back normal. I also had diarrhoea again the other morning and she asked if Id ever had a camera down to check things out. This was mentioned in August but then the diarrhoea went and as the blood tests were fine it wasnt mentioned again.
Is it really possible to feel this ill for so long if theres nothing physically wrong, not sure how much more of this I can take, I am literally at my wits end with it all.
Sorry for the really long post.