Pansy potter
27-10-13, 20:23
Hi ... So embarrassed but I want to share this, I have had years of anxiety since I was 13 and did not know what it was, growing up in Scotland in the 80's sympathy for a wet blanket was not abundant!!! You would think having a mother who was a psyc nurse would have helped but she was the worst one!!!
She also helped me develop an eating disorder as she constantly talked about her weight ( 71/2 stone) I was 81/2 stone and she called me fat all the time and all the time boasting about her job when she nursed anorexics
IT'S TRUE!! Funny when I look back actually that anxiety is the only thing I have now.
So cut to moving to Australia for 7 years from 20-26 I discovered recreational drugs and finally felt free ... My beloved papa died and I returned to Scotland, he died of a massive heart attack at 73
Ever since the attacks were viscous but I stopped all drugs .... I'm now 40 and live in Los Angeles, I have a wonderful like but I had a few stressors last week and I had some coke last night aaaaaahhh!!! Terrible anxiety today that I am going to die of a heart attack, reading this has helped enormously and I'm so glad I found you all, I just want to get better, I have Xanax and tried CBT but I didn't do well with it, also tried celexa and it made me like a zombie
I am so tired
She also helped me develop an eating disorder as she constantly talked about her weight ( 71/2 stone) I was 81/2 stone and she called me fat all the time and all the time boasting about her job when she nursed anorexics
IT'S TRUE!! Funny when I look back actually that anxiety is the only thing I have now.
So cut to moving to Australia for 7 years from 20-26 I discovered recreational drugs and finally felt free ... My beloved papa died and I returned to Scotland, he died of a massive heart attack at 73
Ever since the attacks were viscous but I stopped all drugs .... I'm now 40 and live in Los Angeles, I have a wonderful like but I had a few stressors last week and I had some coke last night aaaaaahhh!!! Terrible anxiety today that I am going to die of a heart attack, reading this has helped enormously and I'm so glad I found you all, I just want to get better, I have Xanax and tried CBT but I didn't do well with it, also tried celexa and it made me like a zombie
I am so tired