Anxiety about my heath

[LilSun]

Hello there..My anxiety began when I started to feel constant pain in my joints and bones.. Then I started to feel pain in my back.. Which gave me a headache. And my body started to have some strange twiches. It's like my veins or nerves on fire all the time.. LATER, I started to feel my lymhps all over the body. Those tiny yet noticable bumps.. So I went to make a blood test and they've showed that my hemoglobin is low, same goes for platelets and all things related to red blood cells.. Everything was low. But then an idea bumped into my head - I've been a blood donor on September 6th, and its been 6 weeks, so maybe that's why my red blood count is still kinda low.. But that wouldn't explain why my lymphocites were 50 (46 normal) and NE low.. Well, I went to google and BAM. LEUKEMIA. LYMPHOMA. So now I'm practically living on fear.. I still get pain all over my body, and a firm bump appeared right under my elbow. It's like a nodule. So maybe it's arthritis? :((( I don't know, I have an appointment with a reumatologist next week, and I'm scared shitless because of my blood test and all this pain.. I don't know what to do and how to relax..

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:( Anyone knows what I might have/or suffered from something like that? :( This anxiety is killing me..

[Petesy]

Hi Lilsun

I'm sorry you're not feeling good at the moment :(

Has anyone in your family had Arthritis??

[LilSun]

Hi Lilsun

I'm sorry you're not feeling good at the moment :(

Has anyone in your family had Arthritis??

Thank you for your answer. :weep:
Yes, I think my grandmother has it, because she always says that her joints hurts.. But cmon, I'm early in my twenties.. :scared15:
But it's better diagnosis than blood cancer, lymphoma.. or bone cancer. :weep:

[LilSun]

Update.. I went to see an ultrasound specialist today..
She said that my inner organs are ok, and that she sees no abnormalities, but I should definitely consult my reumatologist for that bump under my elbow.. The "review" also includes "no enlargened lymphs in pelvic area"
But I forgot to say that I can feel them in my legs and armpits.
:weep:

She also suggested me an oncologist for further analysis.. Now my anxiety is having it's peak.. i'm literally crying, because of the pain, stress and everything else combined..
:weep:

[LilSun]

Further update: My rheumatologist is one hell of of a lunatic. I showed her a hard bump on my elbow, and she was like "meh". DIDN'T EVEN TOUCHED IT. Plus I said that my left side of back hurts all the time and the joint/bone pain is getting worse and worse. What did she do? She decided to send me to throat infections specialists, because fak yo, that's why. I'm getting worse day by day and she is just "meh, you will get better, I'm going to prescribe you some pastiles and painkillers". LOL. I'm burning with rage and fear. What about my god damned blood test, which shows increased lymphocites, low erytrocites, hemoglobin, etc.? I'm not anemic.