Tense
31-10-13, 21:44
Hi,
I am nearly 27 years old and I have suffered with anxiety and depression for 11 years. I have managed my symptoms in the past, but the last 3 years they have come to bite me on the backside.
It all started when I was younger. My family were all mistreated by my biological father and he tried to kill my mum and almost killed my younger brother. I had counselling for this and eventually put it all the past. In 2002 my sister died and I carried a lot of guilt about things I should have said to her but didn't. At the time I was 16 and just about to take my GCSE'S so I put my head down and got on with them. When she died, I had 2 days off school. In 2005 it finally hit me and I lost a lot of weight. I was prescribed Sertraline and have been on them ever since. I got over that stage in my life and started to teach young adults with disabilities. 2 of my students died within a year of each other and this bought back many emotions I had felt but never addressed when my sister died. 2 years ago, my oldest brother had a stroke. I've had one round of CBT and then got sent to bereavement counselling, which has made my anxiety 10 times worse than it's ever been. I am now in my second round of CBT and hoping it works!
I have many fears including medical - centred around medications and illnesses. I dislike doctors, dentists and visiting the hospital - even it is just for routine appointments. I have OCD, GAD, Agoraphobia and Depression. Life sucks but I've got to get better. My sister didn't get much of a life and i'm wasting mine by my fears.
I am nearly 27 years old and I have suffered with anxiety and depression for 11 years. I have managed my symptoms in the past, but the last 3 years they have come to bite me on the backside.
It all started when I was younger. My family were all mistreated by my biological father and he tried to kill my mum and almost killed my younger brother. I had counselling for this and eventually put it all the past. In 2002 my sister died and I carried a lot of guilt about things I should have said to her but didn't. At the time I was 16 and just about to take my GCSE'S so I put my head down and got on with them. When she died, I had 2 days off school. In 2005 it finally hit me and I lost a lot of weight. I was prescribed Sertraline and have been on them ever since. I got over that stage in my life and started to teach young adults with disabilities. 2 of my students died within a year of each other and this bought back many emotions I had felt but never addressed when my sister died. 2 years ago, my oldest brother had a stroke. I've had one round of CBT and then got sent to bereavement counselling, which has made my anxiety 10 times worse than it's ever been. I am now in my second round of CBT and hoping it works!
I have many fears including medical - centred around medications and illnesses. I dislike doctors, dentists and visiting the hospital - even it is just for routine appointments. I have OCD, GAD, Agoraphobia and Depression. Life sucks but I've got to get better. My sister didn't get much of a life and i'm wasting mine by my fears.