Hi I'm Sarah, Queen of Anxiety - LOL!

[Saz23]

Hi Everyone,

I'm new to this site and am looking forward to speaking to more people who possibly feel the same as I do: regular panic attacks, brethlessness, feeling like I have a blocked throat, horrible thoughts/worries of having a serious illness and will any minute keel over, and most mad of all, I often have to check my pulse in fear of my heart stopping, LOL!

I laugh at myself when I explain how I feel, because I do think to myself you nutcase, but when I have the anxiety attacks I genuinly feel like I want to just dissapear and runaway and not be me, it's the worst feeling in the world and I long for the day when I can wake up and not even have the fear of Anxiety cross my mind!

I've just returned from a fab holiday to Cyprus with my partner and another couple, and I really thought a good break from reality would help de-stress and relax me (as the doctor ordered) but instead the last few days of the holiday I felt constantly panicked about various things, not making it home to England, being short of breath, worrying what if I had something wrong with me and we couldn't get to the nearest hospital, and being out of a night time was torture, I constantly felt scared of having a panic attack, wishing the night away to get back to the safety of my apartment. Now i'm back home, I feel rather annoyed with myself for letting it control me so much especially whilst on holiday, I should have had a great time (which I did to a certain degree) but all I could think of was getting home to safety. Deep down I do know that theres nothing wrong with me, and that I'm just have an anxiety attack and I'll be OK, but it's hard to control when it comes over you and even harder to stop the vicious circle of then panicking about panicking again!!!

I've probably made myself sound like a complete weirdo and I've rambled on quite a bit here. But any advice or opinions on any of the above would be greatly appreciated.
Knowing I'm not alone would be a big help!

Thanks Alot


:)

SAZ :)

[clickaway]

Hi Saz and welcome to the forum.

You are doing well by jetting off to Cyprus and having a good time.

You'll find of loads of support here, laced with a touch of fun too.[8D]

Take Care



Ray


http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers

[GAD]

Welcome saz23

Im sure you will find the help and support you need on here.

Michelle

[jill]

Hi Saz :D

WELCOME TO THE SITE

There are lots of nice people here who will help and support you.

TAKE CARE

LOVE JILLX

When you fear something.
Learn as much about it as you can.
Knowledge conquers fear.

[Saz23]

Thanks guys,

I hope to hear other peoples stories too and give my support back

x

SAZ :)

[tamla]

hi saz your not alone hun everythink you,ve said is exatly the same as myself ive been like this for around 8 years now and i honestly never thought that anyone could possebly be the same i also went away to greece with 4 of my friends for my 40th and i couldnt wait to get home i was so scared incase anythink happened to me when i was out there i was to scared to drink incase that made me worse my friends thought i was a bore for not drinking i so wanted to join in with them all having a laugh but i just couldnt i was ok as soon as i hit manchester air port i was on safe ground.my partner didnt belive me when i told him i didnt enjoy it and never drank its an awful illness and its waisted alot of my life im stuck at home most of the time to frightened to go out due to panic attacks

t motown

[honeybee3939]

Hi Sarah

a BIG warm welcome to you, lovely to see you here, im sure you will get some great advice and make new friends on the way, Your in good company here !

Take a look at these posts they may help:

First Steps
First Steps to overcoming Panic and Anxiety (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=942)

Breathing techniques
How Do You Do The Breathing (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4042)
Breathing.. wow (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4037)
Breathing Techniques (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4044)
CONTROLLED BREATHING (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5041)
Working to get better, have a few Q's to ask... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5412)
Insatiable Mouth / Chest Breather???? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7113)

Scary thoughts
obsessional negative thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3343)
what if I kill someone? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1972)
Horrible thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5280)
Morbid thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5482)
just needing some reassurance i'm not alone (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6532)
Feeling lonely (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6820)
What's happening to me? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7446)


Love

Andrea
xxx

[Saz23]

Thanks Tamla,

It's really reassuring to know that other people feel the same, most of the time it's hard to describe to other people how you feel without sounding like your on another planet!

I told my partner on holiday when I first started to feel the Anxiety, but he doesn't understand, he's quite disbelieving when it comes to this subject. I've had Panic Attacks for 3 years now, going through stages of it being good and bad - and he helps me as much as he can, and listens to me when I tell him my fears, but I suppose like most people who don't know how it feels, it seems quite far fetched to be thinking your going to die or feeling so trapped!!

You saying that you felt you couldn't join in with friends when they were drinking is exactly how I felt. I must have seemed such a bore, after every bar - was saying to my partner, are we going home yet, is this the last bar, we've got to be up early tomorrow you know to go wherever trying to think of any excuse to get back. One night I even just made an excuse that I'd had too much sun and felt sick cause I wanted to go home that badly - we left the other couple in the restraunt still eating their deserts cause I had to escape there and then!

Sorry to keep going on about how I feel, you obvliously know what it feels like. Do you feel any better after having this for 8 years, has it eased off at all?


SAZ :)

[keepemlaughing]

no, you don't sound like a weirdo, you sound like you have been spying on me! i identify with just about every thing you said. this site is great.
check out the chat room. good people and good advice.
sheryl

You don't have to be a cow to know what milk is.

Sheryl

[yorkylover]

Hi Saz well done on going to cyprus.You will get lots of helpfull advise here,and make lots of friends.;)

Ellen XX

[Allie]

Hi Saz!

Welcome to the forum!


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Don't worry you don't sound like a weirdo, in fact you've said a lot of things I can relate to, fear of serious illness, panics etc, not to mention the feelings in your throat (although I am for the most part over the latter)! Although I don't do if very often now, a couple of months ago I had my fingers pressed in my ribs anxiously monitoring my heart rate. At the beginning of my illness four years ago, I used to blow into my hands to make sure I was still breathing! Sounds weird but it's all too common in anxiety.

Well done to you for actually going on holiday! Don't be so hard on yourself look at the positives. You got on a plane, went to a foreign country and blocked any easy means of escape i.e returning home to your home very quickly off completely.

Don't worry about rambling on, I've a really bad habit for doing that! Anyhow you didn't ramble on by the way!

Take care

Love Alison P xXx

THE VOICE INSIDE YOUR HEAD IS NOT THE VOICE OF GOD. IT JUST SOUNDS LIKE IT THINKS IT IS! Cheri Huber

[matilda]

Hiya i have just come back from spain and although i was not as bad as you , the anxiety definately stopped me from enjoying myself as much as i could have!!!

It was a relief to get home to normal routines.

Anyway welcome to NMP youll find many like minds here!!!

Love Matilda.

[manmoor]

Hi Sarah,

A big warm welcome to you.

Take Care

Mandyxx

[chelsea]

Hi saz,

Welcome and you will find people who are dealing with the same problems as you. I have found alot of support from this site and met some people that have become very good friends, i hope you get the same from it.

Take care and remember we are all in the same boat so we care and understand.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

donna

[trac67]

Hi Saz,

Welcome to the forum, you will get a lot of good advice here and make some new friends.

Take care

Trac xx

'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'

[LickeyEndBlues]

Welcome Saz, you should find thid site really useful. I have been on here about a month and it is really supportive.

TC

Iain

Laisez les bon temp roulez

[nomorepanic]

Hi Saz and welcome aboard.

Lovely to see you here.

Hope we can be of some help.

People will forget what you said
People will forget what you did
But people will never forget how you made them feel

Nicola