Insomniac
09-11-13, 22:22
I'm lying here trying to reassure other people, while feeling very aware of the pain in my chest.
When I lie on my right I get a pain near my shoulder. It felt higher up my neck today, which convinced me it's a blood clot that will sneak up to my brain and kill me. I am continuing dialogue with myself that I often have feelings like this, and I have not come to any harm, which helps a little.
The tightness in my chest worries me. I notice it more when I lie down, but have it sometimes during the day too. It's easier to distract myself in the daytime. I'm overweight because I comfort eat, and while I know this is wrong, and I tell myself every night that I must get a grip and improve my diet, just getting through a day is hard enough right now.
Saying this 'out loud' is a relief for me. I've been struggling for a while. I joined here ages ago, and overall I am much better. But there are times like this when I need suggestions from you friendly folks. My hubby is working away, which makes it difficult because he's a huge support. I want to sleep, I'm just so exhausted, but once I stop doing things I start to worry and get hyper aware even more!
When I lie on my right I get a pain near my shoulder. It felt higher up my neck today, which convinced me it's a blood clot that will sneak up to my brain and kill me. I am continuing dialogue with myself that I often have feelings like this, and I have not come to any harm, which helps a little.
The tightness in my chest worries me. I notice it more when I lie down, but have it sometimes during the day too. It's easier to distract myself in the daytime. I'm overweight because I comfort eat, and while I know this is wrong, and I tell myself every night that I must get a grip and improve my diet, just getting through a day is hard enough right now.
Saying this 'out loud' is a relief for me. I've been struggling for a while. I joined here ages ago, and overall I am much better. But there are times like this when I need suggestions from you friendly folks. My hubby is working away, which makes it difficult because he's a huge support. I want to sleep, I'm just so exhausted, but once I stop doing things I start to worry and get hyper aware even more!