flatterycat
10-11-13, 13:30
Hello
I've not posted on here since about June because I was doing well. My anxiety went right down and I was pretty much ok with most things.
However, the last week or so I can feel myself slipping again and I need to try and get a grip. If anyone can help me rationalise my thinking I would so appreciate it.
I have quite a few things going on, so forgive me for the long post.
Going back to last year I was having lots of aches and pains in my buttocks and hips. I saw doc a few times, but they weren't concerned. Then in January of this year the left side of my back started hurting suddenly. Doc said I have probably twisted it! During this time I started to worry that it was my kidneys and had a dipstick urine test done which showed invisible blood. As I know this can be a sign of kidney cancer I became obsessed. However, I had had this 7 years previously and it was checked out with ultra sound, cystoscopy and xray. All clear and my consultant said it was just that some people had blood in wee with no cause and that it was just me! Although this was 7 years ago my docs didn't feel it warranted being checked again. So, there I am every time I have a dipstick done it shows trace bold and I am getting worse. The pains got bad in my side and back and eventually went into my right buttock. I thought i had a dvt, then convinced secondary bone cancer from the kidney. Anyway, after a few months I began to feel calmer again and the fears ebbed away.
Since then I have struggled with pains in my outer thighs and for the last 5 months have had awful pain in my left hip, outer thigh and buttock. I am back to thinking its secondary bone cancer again! This pain is mainly in left hip and is worse when I bend to the side. The pain is also in my right thigh, but not as bad. I don't take anything for it and again have seen several docs at my surgery, all of whom aren't worried.
In July I went for some fertility tests as I am desperate for another baby, but at 44 know this is unlikely. During the tests I had the following bloods done - liver function, kidney function, fbc and thyroid ones. All normal! I also have a internal ultrasound done of my ovaries and womb so she could check out my egg supply! Again, she said all normal for my age. At that time I had also been worrying about ovarian cancer. I'm hoping that if there was anything amiss with my ovaries she would have noticed?
So, here I am today. Frightened I have secondary bone cancer - I mean how can pain last so long. It's been 5 months with the left side now and probably a couple of years with the general aches I was having before. I also noticed today that I have a slight tingling in my left buttock.
Can anyone offer any wise words?
Thank you
Sarah x
I've not posted on here since about June because I was doing well. My anxiety went right down and I was pretty much ok with most things.
However, the last week or so I can feel myself slipping again and I need to try and get a grip. If anyone can help me rationalise my thinking I would so appreciate it.
I have quite a few things going on, so forgive me for the long post.
Going back to last year I was having lots of aches and pains in my buttocks and hips. I saw doc a few times, but they weren't concerned. Then in January of this year the left side of my back started hurting suddenly. Doc said I have probably twisted it! During this time I started to worry that it was my kidneys and had a dipstick urine test done which showed invisible blood. As I know this can be a sign of kidney cancer I became obsessed. However, I had had this 7 years previously and it was checked out with ultra sound, cystoscopy and xray. All clear and my consultant said it was just that some people had blood in wee with no cause and that it was just me! Although this was 7 years ago my docs didn't feel it warranted being checked again. So, there I am every time I have a dipstick done it shows trace bold and I am getting worse. The pains got bad in my side and back and eventually went into my right buttock. I thought i had a dvt, then convinced secondary bone cancer from the kidney. Anyway, after a few months I began to feel calmer again and the fears ebbed away.
Since then I have struggled with pains in my outer thighs and for the last 5 months have had awful pain in my left hip, outer thigh and buttock. I am back to thinking its secondary bone cancer again! This pain is mainly in left hip and is worse when I bend to the side. The pain is also in my right thigh, but not as bad. I don't take anything for it and again have seen several docs at my surgery, all of whom aren't worried.
In July I went for some fertility tests as I am desperate for another baby, but at 44 know this is unlikely. During the tests I had the following bloods done - liver function, kidney function, fbc and thyroid ones. All normal! I also have a internal ultrasound done of my ovaries and womb so she could check out my egg supply! Again, she said all normal for my age. At that time I had also been worrying about ovarian cancer. I'm hoping that if there was anything amiss with my ovaries she would have noticed?
So, here I am today. Frightened I have secondary bone cancer - I mean how can pain last so long. It's been 5 months with the left side now and probably a couple of years with the general aches I was having before. I also noticed today that I have a slight tingling in my left buttock.
Can anyone offer any wise words?
Thank you
Sarah x