Tanner40
11-11-13, 13:12
Today is the last day of my four day weekend. A bit of a rare holiday for me, as I rarely take vacation time. All in all, it's been a good weekend. A successful weekend with my HA and general anxiety. No major panic attacks at all and I am thankful.
I've played with my dogs and enjoyed the new kitten, Montana. Went to lunch with a friend. We did grocery shopping and fixed some wonderful meals. We even managed to sit down yesterday and put together a new financial budget without screaming, crying and gnashing of teeth. That was a major miracle. I could not have done that a month ago. My anxiety level and my defensiveness would have been sky high. My frustration and resentments would have overwhelmed me.
I'm thankful for the bit of recovery that I have began seeing over the last week or so. This is the beginning of my 4th week on citalopram and the mornings are still a bit rough for the first hour, but I have faith that they will get better.
My online CBT is moving a bit slow for me, as I am now on a week where I have to practice two things: 1) Spending 10 minutes each day doing something that I like to do, and 2) Spending 5 minutes being as nice to myself as I would to a friend who was having problems. I don't know why but this exercise seems like I'm not really doing much. I feel like I want to be moving faster. That's me though, always in a hurry and want to do it my way.
Thanks for reading the long post and for and good ideas on tackling my CBT assignments.
I've played with my dogs and enjoyed the new kitten, Montana. Went to lunch with a friend. We did grocery shopping and fixed some wonderful meals. We even managed to sit down yesterday and put together a new financial budget without screaming, crying and gnashing of teeth. That was a major miracle. I could not have done that a month ago. My anxiety level and my defensiveness would have been sky high. My frustration and resentments would have overwhelmed me.
I'm thankful for the bit of recovery that I have began seeing over the last week or so. This is the beginning of my 4th week on citalopram and the mornings are still a bit rough for the first hour, but I have faith that they will get better.
My online CBT is moving a bit slow for me, as I am now on a week where I have to practice two things: 1) Spending 10 minutes each day doing something that I like to do, and 2) Spending 5 minutes being as nice to myself as I would to a friend who was having problems. I don't know why but this exercise seems like I'm not really doing much. I feel like I want to be moving faster. That's me though, always in a hurry and want to do it my way.
Thanks for reading the long post and for and good ideas on tackling my CBT assignments.